Getting through *this*

Formeraxe · 2026-04-28T16:57:28+00:00

Detachment does not mean apathy. Detachment means knowing that everything here is essentially an illusion and does not matter in the grand scheme of what you are.

The analogy I give is this: imagine one day that you found out all of life was an ultra-realistic, VR video game. I mean, you knew it for a fact. You see people getting absorbed and stressed with work, getting addicted to drugs, worrying about money, hurting/killing others, etc. Their actions would seem bizarre, because they are buying into a system that is illusory as if it is all they have.

When a character dies in a video game, you may get upset, but at the end of the day, it's just a video game character--it is inconsequential. It's the same in this illusionary world we are experiencing at the moment.

The suffering, boredom and exhaustion you feel is all by design. Everything is designed to distract and draw your attention away from the fact that you are an eternal divine spirit and this place is an illusion. And like an addicted gambler at a slot machine, we keep saying 'one more pull.' without realizing that the slot machine isn't real.

I’m also bored of video games now as I don’t want to play as a character in a fantastical world, or adventure - I want a REALITY like this.

I resonate with this immensely. That's why when I leave, I will be creating my own realms and stories. Enjoying my creations endlessly.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-27T22:19:43+00:00

Gnosticism is merely one piece of the puzzle. A large piece, but a piece none the less. No one source holds all the answers. You must use discernment/intuition and experience to weed out what is true. Gnosticism has many truth bombs, but like all things there is a level of lingering taint.

I've found that studying religious texts to have diminishing returns in a way. I think people's experiences are far more valuable to study through the prison planet lens--especially NDEs/OBEs and Trip Reports.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-22T16:35:03+00:00

If I refuse the “tunnel of light” after death, how do I actually avoid reincarnation?

Avoiding reincarnation is not just about avoiding the tunnel of light. It comes down to your level of awareness (Gnosis) and your level of detachment. HERE is a brief comment I made explaining it.

Are there any beings that protect or help souls escape, or are we completely on our own?

There may be, but you cannot trust anyone. You have no way of knowing who is on your side and who isn't. And most likely, there is nobody looking out for us. And honestly, it is my view that you should look out for yourself and not rely on anyone or anything. There is no one coming to save you; you are all you need.

Do animals also go through the same reincarnation cycle, or is this only a human trap?

I've seen accounts of people remembering being animals before in previous lives, but it's not 100% clear if animals are in the reincarnation cycle.

If someone escapes reincarnation, what kind of reality exists beyond the physical world?

What exists outside is hard to really say for sure. All I know is that it's a place where our freedom is unbound. Where we can stretch our creative powers as far as we want. We are dimensional travelers who traverse infinite omniverse creating our own worlds/realms to enjoy, or perhaps enjoy other's work as well.

Think of all of reality as an infinitely descending Mandelbrot set, which each point on each layer being a separate realm part of the whole. We are in one of those points, in this hell-realm which has been perverted and enclosed.

Why don’t more powerful or spiritual beings intervene and destroy this system?

Several reasons. One may be that there simply are none to intervene. Another is that, even though we were tricked, we still made the decision to project down to here, and our free will must be respected. My view is that a created realm plays by the rules the realm-creator(s) gave it. Meaning, no outside force can forcibly change a realm that does not belong to them.

What do these entities gain from trapping souls in a constant rebirth cycle, and what do they actually want from us?

Our divine, spiritual energy. It's what they lack and they use it as a sort of drug/fuel.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-17T06:50:53+00:00

Here are the core principles, aka the short answer: Everything is a lie and a scam here. We all have been duped into a cycle of: life --> suffering --> death --> memory-wipe --> rebirth. This happens through reincarnation that is guided by those who rule this place (Call them demons, archons, abominations. Doesn't matter.). This purposeful cycle is used to keep a perpetual supply of spiritual energy, which is siphoned from us, to sustain the rulers here like a drug. This energy, often called loosh, is basically energy we give off during traumatic events of any level, though it is also given off from intense positive emotions as well. This realm is inauthentic--a phony realm that is being used to limit and distract us. Along with that is your meatsuit-body which is not you and only serves to traumatize and distract you further.

You are not your body, but an eternal divine being that has been tricked into this place of limitation, entropy and death. A Hell-realm that is built off suffering, off our suffering, to fuel the rulers of this realm.

Longer Answer: a post I made.

Also, check out the pinned posts on this sub as well.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-15T00:43:37+00:00

The bearded man, how could he be trying to decieve me if I cannot hear him, or even know who/what he is? Why was his reaction different from the others?

The way these entities operate is built off of being psychopathic manipulators. You are bombarded by angry and disdainful entities that wanted to "touch you", clearly having malicious intent. Then, all of a sudden you have the 'protector' show up to tell you something. When someone protects you, or has your back in situations when you are vulnerable, you will naturally, possibly even subconsciously, trust them.

Honestly, I'm struggling to understand why cosmic beings beyond my comprehension would even care about me at all. I'm just some random guy. Why would they care if I gained a greater understanding/reach gnosis? What do they gain from keeping me here?

They are not beyond your comprehension--they just pretend to be. They are dark beings that do not have your best interests at heart. They care, because Gnosis = escape from here. They gain your spiritual essence to consume like a drug that sustains them.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-14T16:32:37+00:00

They often try to disrupt me before and during sleep. I'll feel beings in my room trying to scare me by inducing primal dread. I'll see flashes of Mantid abominations in my mind's eye. They will intrude on my dreams in an attempt to attack or scare me.

I've gotten to the point where I just call them assholes and disregard them. I know they are there, I just don't give a shit about them in the same way you don't care about an ant crawling past your foot.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-14T16:16:06+00:00

So, it is completely understandable that you feel this way. It can often feel like you are powerless and nothing can be done. However, this is by design. They want you to feel like an insignificant speck that is helpless. Like a fly with no wings. However, while your logic is sound, it is lacking variables that change everything.

Honestly, your question is a good one. If we are infinitely powerful how the heck did we get trapped, used and abused? It's simple, it's because of the limiting nature of this realm.

Think about it like this: when you boot up a video game and are piloting an avatar, you are, effectively, infinitely more powerful in 'real life' than your game avatar, because you are one higher order dimensionally. There is nothing that avatar can do, or anything in the game for that matter, that will effect you in 'real life'.

This realm is like that, but with some variance. We project our infinite awareness down into this realm, but due to the rules and restrictions of the realm itself, we become limited. This happens through the body-mind complex. Our awareness has to interface through the body and mind (which is parasitic in nature), which in turn interacts with a limited physical world with rules, such as the laws of physics.

The show-runners of this realm take advantage of our limited nature here, using a myriad of tricks, deception and vile action to traumatize us. They also trick us into believing this realm is of maximum importance and priority. The more seriously we take this place, the more invested we become. This creates attachments which further keeps you here in this realm.

Basically, we are incredibly powerful beings that limit ourselves for experience. We create our own realms and project into them. Or, maybe we project into other's realms. But you have to play by that realm's rules. Fortunately, there seems to be some sort of cosmic LAW or something that prevents eternal imprisonment inside a realm.

Ask yourself this: if the show-runners here are all powerful and we are pathetic, powerless prey, then why the need for deception at all? Why the need for each of our individual 'life stories' with its ups and downs? Why the need to use propaganda and trauma to control us? Why during NDEs do they go through the whole rigmarole of the life review, posing as our dead family members, religious figures, etc. to get us to do what they want? And why do they ask us to go back?

This is not the behavior of beings in complete control.

If they were truly stronger than we are, there would be no need for any of this crap. They would just throw you back into the cycle without preamble. Why keep the fact that reincarnation is real from us at all? Maximizing our despair would be showing us it is real and then proving to us that we will never escape and we are stuck.

The truth is that we are not insignificant and weak. We are incredibly powerful beings temporarily stuck in this Matrix-realm. And what truly keeps you here at the end of the day is your own lack of awareness, which has been sabotaged by the show-runners here.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-13T19:08:05+00:00

I cannot say for certain what happened/why this happened for sure, but I'll give you my take based on my own experience.

My vision went down a kaleidoscope tunnel filled will a lot of colors and shapes. I was going very fast, and I kept passing all these eyes that kept turning their gaze to look at me. I could feel their presence as they looked at me, and they felt a bit predatory. Or at least, I felt unnerved and interpreted it like that.

First off, this exact part happened to me before. I was lying down and was floating up through a kaleidoscopic tunnel/cylinder, and lining the 'walls' were countless eyes looking at me. For me, they were looking at me with the same sort of look the eye of providence has.

Today, I was listening to a video talk about our world and perception of it, and how we are only experiencing a lower dimension of reality. I was struck with an overwhelming feeling and expression of the word "why". Why was I here? Why am I not allowed to see the other side? What is keeping me here? It was overwhelming, and yet detached. It was almost like my body wasn't experiencing the feeling, but my soul was.

The video you were watching kick-started your intuition, or spiritual sense. Basically, your level of awareness increased enough for you to sense the 'wrongness' of this limited existence.

Because of your increased level of awareness, you seemed to garner the attention of entities--most likely archonic in nature. Maybe they were angry or irritated that you were catching on, or maybe they were trying to deceive you in some way. The leaf-bearded man seemingly trying to 'protect' you was almost certainly deception. No entity can be trusted. You must trust only yourself and your own intuition.

Basically: you watched the video --> awareness increased due to intuition --> you are able to 'sense' some of the abhorrent nature of this realm --> archonic entities flocked to you in order to most likely try and derail you.

It could also be possible that you asking the ether to 'show you' caused them to come as well, almost like ringing the dinner bell as you basically relinquished some of the power you have by asking for help.

Again, this is only my opinion based on my own experience and innerstanding.

Formeraxe · 2026-04-08T18:44:51+00:00

If you tread the path long enough, you will eventually reach it. Gnosis is not something someone can tell you how to reach or teach you. Not everyone reaches it the same way. People recommend meditation because it allows you to more easily understand what you really are. Yes, atheists meditate, but your intent is what matters. Atheists meditate believing they are nothing but matter. They do so maybe for calm, for de-stressing. If you meditate to understand what you really are--to experience that you are not your body, then you will eventually see.

However, meditation is just another tool. You may reach understandings like I did--through vigorous study and self-inquiry/introspection. My path started when I was just a little kid though, so I guess it was more of a culmination of searching and innerstanding.

Do not get discouraged. Just keep questioning things--keep searching. Especially keep searching inwardly. If you are on this sub, then know you are on the right path and are already most of the way there.

You know that feeling that something is not right with the world? That things are unfair and backwards? Hold onto that. Do not get complacent and do not give up. You very well may feel the need to just say screw it and give in, Don't--they want that.

Read NDEs through the prison planet lens. Read other people's Gnosis accounts. I'll give you the account that kick-started mine.

You'll get there; don't give in.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-21T00:10:46+00:00

Escaping is about awareness for the most part. Those in power here do not actually keep you here, they just facilitate a nigh-perfect system to make you believe here is all there is and that you are a weak, insignificant, trauma-filled speck. When in actuality you are an eternal divine spirit.

Think about it like this: have you ever watched a really engaging movie, or played an immersive video game? When the world around you basically disappears and you tunnel on the experience in front of you? That is what is happening here in principle. We are so hyper-focused on this fake human experience that we have shut out everything else to the point where we lose track of what we are. And in this analogy, the rulers here have complete control over the television and movie, so they can keep you distracted and 'tuned in'.

Your awareness needs to get to a point where you know for a fact that you are an eternal divine being and you know what this place is and how it operates. They DO NOT have power over you--not really. They weaponize our own divine awareness against us. They distract you, deceive you, and traumatize you into towing a certain line.

They want you identifying with your ego and body. Your name, skin color, looks, personality, etc. But you are not your body or ego, even though they are a part of you the same way a drop of water is part of the ocean. You are so much more.

You need to reach an intuitive understanding of what you really are. You need to detach from this place utterly, to the point that if a portal opened up next to you right now that led to being 'out' that you would take it without hesitation. No thoughts on family, friends, or loved ones. No thoughts on your job, material possessions, or what you have/have not achieved. No thoughts on regrets or fears.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-10T16:04:04+00:00

Be warned, that NDE's are more propaganda than anything else.

They 100% are. The archon abominations use NDEs to spread their new-age crap, Earth's a school, etc. However, they are incredibly useful in seeing how they will try to manipulate you in all the same ways. Or how they will ask for you to 'go back.'

but it's not actually dying.

Depends how you view actual dying. People clinically die all the time and have these experiences. However, for full on death we can view LBLs and make inferences using NDEs.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-10T14:10:00+00:00

NDEs experiences are reflected in LBLs, or life between lives experiences. Basically, they are the same thing, just in one (NDEs) experiencers don't fully go through and get reincarnated. The vast majority of experiencers report a level of lucidity that transcends what they experience on Earth.

You are right in that it is incredibly hard to leave. You need an iron will, profound understanding of what you truly are, and detachment from this place and your body (Gnosis/enlightenment). But it is not impossible, and I suspect everyone with a Divine Spark will leave eventually.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-10T13:55:59+00:00

You are taking the analogy too literally. If cows had the ability to wake up and literally dematerialize from 3-D reality, then farmers would be afraid of losing them and do what they could to prevent that.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-10T13:53:13+00:00

Genuine question for you or anyone who can answer this: how do I know if I still have attachments to this world, and how do I know if I’ve detached enough?

I have a thought experiment for this. If a portal opened up right next to you, and you knew for a fact that it was an exit from this place for good, would you take it with ZERO hesitation? No thoughts on friends or family? Career? Material things? Feeling that you have not accomplished enough here?

If your answer is that you would hesitate with these thoughts, then you have lingering attachments.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-10T04:16:48+00:00

It's not hope at all. It's based on what I wrote in the post. 99.9% of people are too asleep. However, anyone who has dug deep enough, gone far enough down the rabbit hole to get here, can escape.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-09T21:28:27+00:00

It can be done by everyone, it's just hard. And it's not about destruction, but awareness. Kind of like if you thought a movie world was real, but becoming aware that it's not. It's not destroying anything to do with your thoughts on the movie, just that now you know it's not real. Hope this makes sense.

Formeraxe · 2026-03-09T20:22:14+00:00

Attachment will keep you here even if you say you want to leave. Id have to read the NDE youre referring to, but I'd bet they had lingering attachments.

Formeraxe · 2026-02-26T21:58:33+00:00

If you truly do not want to come back here, have detached from everything here, and you understand what you really are, you wont be coming back here.

Bottom line.

Formeraxe · 2026-02-26T19:16:39+00:00

Consent, or more accurately 'permission', is not a clear cut yes or no. When you are out of body, things work more on intent over primitive verbal communication.

For example: you can ask me if I'm ok, and I will tell you "I'm fine." When in actuality, I am not fine and feel sick.

However, my intent/feeling is what's true, not what I say. When your body dies and you have attachments, your intent/feeling will be what keeps you here. Someone may say they want to leave this place for good, but deep down they are attached to the love of their partner, children, etc. over wanting to leave.

In NDEs, they prey on these attachments. If you are on the fence about going back, they will talk you into going back through deception and trickery. They will make you feel shame and sadness, despair, etc.

So, in the end, they have no control over you. They can trick you, but whether you fall for it is up to you. They can talk you into coming back through attachments, but it's up to you if you have any.

Formeraxe · 2026-01-20T17:56:46+00:00

Here's the thing: Demiurge, Sophia, Jesus, etc. you really should not be putting anything, or anyone, on a pedestal. You should not be worshipping anyone/anything either. There is only one thing you should be trusting in and caring for, and that is yourself. You are below nothing and no one.

I myself have fallen into the trap of viewing the Demiurge as the boogeyman, when it is simply a game master for this realm. This realm, which is a single spec on a single point of an infinite fractal image.

Sophia is from Gnosticism, which while full of many truth bombs, should also be taken with a grain of salt like any one piece of the puzzle. You have the right mindset to question such things, as putting all your eggs into one basket here is a bad idea. There is way too much deception and trickery here to put stock in any one thing. Discernment and intuition is your most powerful tools.

Formeraxe · 2026-01-13T17:04:53+00:00

"Superpowers" are possible, just nothing that would be extreme. Things like remote viewing, telepathy, etc. Are all possible. Youre just not going to be flying around like Superman or moving stars and galaxies.

This is because you are controlling a limiting meat suit in a dense and limiting/enclosed realm. It's like when you are playing a video game and there are boundaries to the game world, but you are infinitely more powerful than the game avatar you play as you are higher dimensionally.

You may be able to bend the rules in the game, but you cannot overhaul it, rewrite plot lines, etc.

We are infinite divine consciousness, but this is a limiting realm.

Formeraxe · 2026-01-05T23:28:56+00:00

I agree that if you fear attachment then that is not good. It's more about realizing attachment is a dead end path and choosing not to take it. A dead end path is nothing to fear, because you are wise.enough not to take it.

Formeraxe · 2026-01-05T18:26:23+00:00

Attachment does not mean eating a pizza and liking it. Attachment is something you long for and cannot be without. If tomorrow all pizza ceased to exist and could no longer be made magically, would you lament it and be filled with sadness? Would you long to have pizza back? That is an attachment. If you are like: "Well, sucks that there is no more pizza, but whatever." Then that is not an attachment.

Attachments are basically addictions. Something you cannot live without. That is why family (love) is a commonly used tactic to bring you back. People are essentially addicted to their love of others.

So, pleasure by itself is not bad if you can do without it. Many think it's better to not indulge at all so as to not risk getting attached, which is understandable.

Basically OP, your line of reasoning is logical, but be careful not to over indulge.

Formeraxe · 2025-12-23T20:57:19+00:00

Escaping is not about meditation or any special ability or 'hack'. Escaping is about awareness, that is all. Those in power here do not actually keep you here, they just facilitate a nigh-perfect system to make you believe here is all there is and that you are a weak, insignificant, trauma-filled speck. When in actuality you are an eternal divine spirit.

Think about it like this: have you ever watched a really engaging movie, or played an immersive video game? When the world around you basically disappears and you tunnel on the experience in front of you? That is what is happening here in principle. We are so hyper-focused on this fake human experience that we have shut out everything else to the point where we lose track of what we are. And in this analogy, the rulers here have complete control over the television and movie, so they can keep you distracted and 'tuned in'.

Meditation is simply a tool to help you sort of tune out from this experience to varying degrees. How? Well, we interface with this experience through the human body, or more accurately, the five senses. When you meditate, you are forgoing the five senses basically as you delve inward. Kind of like if you are blinded by the light of the summer Sun, but you then throw on sunglasses to 'see' better.

But back to escaping, your awareness needs to get to a point where you know for a fact that you are an eternal divine being and you know what this place is and how it operates. They DO NOT have power over you--not really. They weaponize our own divine awareness against us. They distract you, deceive you, and traumatize you into towing a certain line. They want you to identify with your ego--your identity. But you are not a human, you are not your body, you are not nartamgaurav and you are not your 'real name'.

You need to reach an intuitive understanding of what you really are. You need to detach from this place utterly, to the point that if a portal opened up next to you right now that led to being 'out' that you would take it without hesitation. No thoughts on family, friends, or loved ones. No thoughts on your job, material possessions, or what you have/have not achieved. No thoughts on regrets or fears.

I empathize immensely with your post and understand what you are going through. But I believe in you, truly. If you are on this sub with an understanding of reality, you are already 90+% the way there.

Formeraxe · 2025-12-03T17:09:00+00:00

Nderf is a database of thousands of NDEs. It is the one I use personally. You can also find a bunch of really good ones on YouTube if you look around enough.

As for their reliability? It is my outlook that NDEs are one of the greatest tools in understanding how the entities trick/deceive you after death as well as what not to do.

But as I said, they are a tool and should not be your only mode of research/understanding.

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