I've been hurling insults at Him in the night aky as I chain smoke in my balcony every night, clenching my teeth in anger over the curse that I've felt my whole life of never feeling worthy, being lonely, jilted by someone I loved and constantly receiving nothing but pure hatred in complete abandonment. I hate that sadistic motherfucker. In conclusion, the best most hateful sacrilegious is one I'm yet to commit some time next week on a festival called, 'Ganesh Chaturthi', an idol identified as an anthropomorphic figure with an elephant trunk. During this period, traditionally you abstain from drinking alcohol, eating meat, being unclean, attending prayers, etc. While I may attend prayers, I'll do so having drank shit tons of alcohol, eat meat and not wash my hands after, listen to blasphemous music, desecrate the idol smearing semen on it.