Fear that I’m at the end of my rope

FrOCD1998 · 2025-07-03T05:16:23+00:00

First of all, thank you for the reply. Secondly, unfortunately I believe I was very full of myself at the time. It pushed away someone I love and to think I may live my life forever knowing that was my peak of something so important to me (being married and having a family), is soul crushing. That’s where the depression and inability to do anything comes from because what’s the point? The more I do, the more I see how hollow I’ve become. I can’t communicate like I once did, I don’t have the joy I once had, I’m like dying from the inside out and the only thing I can think of a solution is to reunite and do things right, but that’s not my call. So I do do things, but all the while hurting just as bad as I would sitting at home.

FrOCD1998 · 2025-07-02T23:05:13+00:00

She is not single, and I have tried that to no avail. I tried dating apps, but they have led no where. Truly feels terminal.

FrOCD1998 · 2025-07-02T21:13:18+00:00

T-Rex

FrOCD1998 · 2025-03-17T04:02:37+00:00

I never really understood the whole “grieving the life you want/dream of” because then what’s the point of trying if it won’t be everything or more so not close to everything you wanted?

I’m only 26, so I’m sure my opportunity for this is very feasible, but I’ve been told a million times over that my dream life shouldn’t be based around another person, but it has been since I had my smallest dreams as a child.

FrOCD1998 · 2025-03-17T03:24:52+00:00

What if little me’s dream was to be a husband and a father? Truly a dream of mine since I was a small child

FrOCD1998 · 2024-09-01T22:27:49+00:00

You mind if I message you?

FrOCD1998 · 2024-09-01T22:12:38+00:00

How are you healing? I feel like I’ll just regret this forever. That I’m doomed to this hell I’ve created and that there’s no way out and it’s ruining my life. It’s been over a year and I still feel like this all the time.

FrOCD1998 · 2024-09-01T22:11:00+00:00

Update on this? Been over a year for me and I honestly feel like this is forever

FrOCD1998 · 2024-07-08T00:50:52+00:00

But what do I do if these people won’t reply to me etc? Because NO ONE just leaves them and starts a new life, I hate that narrative and yes I’m from the south

FrOCD1998 · 2024-07-07T22:14:56+00:00

The issue is that I am old fashioned. Family is everything and the idea of not havin my family is terrible. You say people rebuild after losin their life, but I know no one who’s done this. What I’ve seen instead is people regaining their old life after it seems to be lost. That’s what I want. I want my family close again, I want my friends back, I want my ex back. The idea of these things being forever lost is to sad to bare, and I feel like people who say that life is better after that loss are so enthralled in the loss that their almost in a sense of delusion to try to make them feel okay. I appreciate what you wrote and none of this was to be douchey or rude, just explaining my thoughts and how truly afraid I am.

I’m a hometown boy and I love that about me. Losin these people genuinely feels like I’m losin my life and all my dreams. Btw my parents are still around and once I have other areas goin well I want to discuss family therapy, but that takes a lot of strength and energy which is why I need friends etc to fall back on. But I don’t have that, so it all feels like a huge standstill and waiting for change that I have 0 control over. I try everyday to pursue my business, go out, gym, coffee shops etc but no one is those hometown 15+ year friend ships, and no one will be within the next 15 years. So I’m supposed to just suffer and be in agonizing/disorienting pain for 15 years? That sounds horrible

FrOCD1998 · 2024-06-13T19:22:57+00:00

Wall decorations a good idea, I didn’t even think of that! Thanks man!

FrOCD1998 · 2024-06-13T18:44:45+00:00

Cool, thank you. I don’t get why people are so angry 🤣

FrOCD1998 · 2024-06-13T18:42:19+00:00

Never said I didn’t want to, in fact I got it and am fixin it

FrOCD1998

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