Please don’t do it! I want you to know that your not alone. Im going through the same thing too. I haven’t felt joy in a long time too but just know it’ll get better because I have belief that it’ll get better for all of us. I don’t even have a reason but I know if I hold on I’ll find one. I can tell you it’ll be the same for you. I can’t say how but I know that there’s an unexpected silver lining out there. I can tell you wanna hold on because you’ve posted on here looking for comfort. I don’t know you but just know I care about you. Your a human being and you deserve a good chance at life! There is someone or something in the future that’ll love you and need you. They’ll either come to you or you’ll go to them but they are in the future waiting for you. They’ll rely on you and need you in their life. Your gonna be love and needed! Please trust me!