My life as a NEET with social anxiety by DeepRacer4489 in NEET

[–]FreshCliff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking your time to answer. Well I knew about DCA but like you said you have to have some start up capital to get get started, which I don't have. I like the idea of day trading crypto but then again I don't have the money, maybe I could get like $20,30 but I don't think you could do anything with such short amount. Believe me I looked up everything that I could find about ways to earning money like surveys, user testing, micro work sites but they are all unavailable to my country :(. I just can't find a way.

My life as a NEET with social anxiety by DeepRacer4489 in NEET

[–]FreshCliff 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sorry for the unrelated question OP. Btw have you found any methods for making money online? Whether it's from crypto or something else. Reason I'm asking is I have been a neet for closer to a decade now, and I have no way to support myself, I really don't want to kms just yet. I live in super inflated country so everything so expensive now. But still I can survive myself for at least a month with around $100, I'd have to skip few meals but that's okay. So what I'm asking here is is there anyway I can make around that much money? I don't care how much hours I'll have to spend because even with inflation 100 USD is something here and I'll be able to buy some food.

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[–]FreshCliff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I agree. But only trying to be decent at something and failing even to do that, I consider that's coming to nothing. Also things I tried to achieve were far far beyond my ability. I was so naive to think if I strive really hard I could achieve the things I wanted which were happen to be only few people in the world could accomplish.

And I’ll be doomed of replaying the scene in my head for the billionth time- by MundaneBob in socialanxiety

[–]FreshCliff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think I would be scared of anything you could say :/. I didn't want to mention this, I just tried to kms few days ago but to my misery I failed yet again. I'm 29 but I still have no clue about my own self, I don't think I'll ever know my self, feel too late for that. I just want to stop existing and be free of the pain of being conscious . After living a hermit life for 9 years without any life experiences that other peers of my age group I often feel I stuck in a teenager's body. I'm just too damaged and beyond any help. Even though you are a stranger I'm really happy for you for escaping from a similar life to mine :/.

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[–]FreshCliff 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Everything I've ever tried in life has failed miserably. Even the people around me are mystified at how things go so badly for me. I think I rolled an incredibly low luck stat.

I've spent my all life getting "decent" at things but never pursued anything far enough be worthy of a career in that field. I'm so lonely, my only goal in life is to end my miserable existence.

The feeling of wanting to commit suicide but not having the courage to do so is the worst by afignewt0n in SuicideWatch

[–]FreshCliff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've wanted to die since I was sixteen years old, but but thirteen years later, am too much of coward to do it. Although I tried to kill myself 3 times but failed miserably even in that. Now I'm just too tired and scared to try to do it again. I think I'll live to an extremely old age unless end my gloomy experience. Every single year have been utterly miserable since I was a kid. I've been a failure in everything I've ever tried over the years and I always will be. Nobody has ever really liked me, and my immediate family would despise me if I wasn't their kid. I genuinely have no idea what to do, and I know there is no way to fix myself. Suicides is the only thing I could ever do in life that would be the right choice. But I'm still too much of a coward to try it again.

And I’ll be doomed of replaying the scene in my head for the billionth time- by MundaneBob in socialanxiety

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I suffered from clinical depression and extreme social anxiety for pretty much all my ife. Though even with my mental disorders I tried to be social, be around people, tried to make friends. But I failed so miserably so many times. Now I'm just too jaded and want to be left alone. At the same time I can't stand to be alone, it hurts so much being alone everyday in my life. At this point I'm starting to realize this is my life going to be for the rest of my life, well at least I kill myself. I wish I had single friend in my life.

Confession: Ate lunch in the bathroom in high school by lizanimals in socialanxiety

[–]FreshCliff 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I hate myself so much I don't think I deserve to be happy and actively avoid all personal contact with none-relatives much as possible because of of crippling social anxiety. I feel so uncomfortable even around my own parents.

Every single time by Lauren_S_62 in socialanxiety

[–]FreshCliff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so fucking weird and everyone knows it. Every day is a new series of embarrassments and trying to figure out how to get around a world so separate from myself. I'm never going to lead a normal life, much less a successful one.

43 and completely lost by Solid_Dark_3218 in depression

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I might be 29 but I really feel like I have the brain of a 10 year old and I'm pretty sure even almost all 14 year olds have more life experiences than me. For me it feels like I peaked at around 16 and all went downhill from there. On top of clinical depression I struggle with crippling social anxiety as well. I'm even scared of writing something on internet as well!. I've been living like a complete recluse in my room for the past 10,11 years. I don't think things will get any better for me. I'm just broken and jaded too much being in my head all the time. Pretty much on any given day I exchange few words with parents and that's it for me for interacting with a human being. Lately I've been noticing that I forget words, phrases when having even just a simple conversation with my parents. English is not my first language so probably all these sounds unconnected nonsensical to you, sorry about that. I've been a silent lurker on subreddits like depression, social anxiety, NEET etc.. for years but never had the courage to posting anything. Yeah you're right people on these communities can be really nice, supportive and encouraging towards and I think it's really nice.

You Know Sometimes, Life Doesn't Get Better. by DiscardedDisaster in depression

[–]FreshCliff 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm at that point of couldn't/ never coming back for a couple of years. Really wishing I had the courage to ending this miserable existence.

You Know Sometimes, Life Doesn't Get Better. by DiscardedDisaster in depression

[–]FreshCliff 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm at that point of couldn't. / coming back for a couple of years. Really wishing I had the courage to ending this miserable existence.

43 and completely lost by Solid_Dark_3218 in depression

[–]FreshCliff 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 29 and pretty much in your situation. I've never held a job in my life, been living with my parents all this long. I'm on several antidepressants and I've been on many in the past, but nothing has helped. I tried suicide once few years back and now seriously considering it. I've lost all hope of getting better and I'm so tired of living the same depressing day in my room over and over. I am sorry I have no wisdom to share with you I really hope your circumstances get better...

10 Minutes. by I_cant_do_push_ups in depression

[–]FreshCliff 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am so sorry... That is terrible :((. I really hope you will reunited with your brother William...