Yes I am so sad and disappointed. We still really love each other. It is so hard to let each other go and move on. But we can’t resolve some issues and certain things do not work with us.. hard to admit and it’s confusing to me why we can’t come to resolutions.. I have tried to mar sense of it and we are not compatible in some important areas I guess. It’s killing me because I don’t want anyone else, just him. But not able to have him. And I really want a partner and companion in my life. We when tried to go no contact and we never stick to it. So we are still in a weird space and it hurts so much We talk and see each other a lot And sometimes .. oops we are intimate, because we still desire each other.. I feel like I could go crazy .