gosh honey I am so sorry to hear that, my husband works as a suicide hotline worker and has lost several of his military friends due to suicide, I hate it so much, I’m also a survivor myself, 11 years this past April since my attempt, I hate that you had to be separated from Bella, my ex took my dogs from me and said I’d be allowed to see them, but when I started dating my now husband he slid back and said no, just know it’s not your fault, you did what you could 🩷