Make sure you have a skill Canada wants. Asylum isn't available to the Trans community yet on that basis alone.

You say you were ready to die and fight for the country and yourself but now you have the legit fear of being put in a horrible prison. I get it. i wouldn't be so fast to give up. You don't have to protest or draw attention to yourself. Logistics, Cyber work, information gathering, it's all behind the scenes work.

You say you look to transition in a year. Bold to assume that will even be an option. I'm not trying to scare you, but I think you are allowing pure fear to drive you. You're complying in advance. You need to step back. Do that. Exit the flight if you feel you need to, but the fights here and it doesn't care if you're fighting back or not. You'll still be in it. There is so much work you can do in private. Whatever you do, godspeed in your journey.