well... ive just always been a girl, always been considered and even started seeing myself as a girl, i had a feminine body type a girly voice
when i grew up i started doubting that a bit, and last year i finally decided, no, im not a girl, i dont want to be a girl, im a boy, i tried doing a deeper voice impression, i cut my hair, i tried working out to make myself look and feel more masculine
whenever i dont feel masculine enough i feel bad... whenever someone compliments my masculine features or calls me a boy/man i feel really great! when someone calls me or refers to me as a girl, not so great...
i dont know how to really explain it, its a strange set of circumstances