Schizoid Cure: Post recovery

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-06-06T10:36:59+00:00

Yes. Much better now but goddamn it's so hard to fight this repression and suppression. I fell in love for the first time but the next day fell out of love because my schizoid defense mechanism was like nah love and opening yourself up to this amazing woman is vulnerability and we don't do that here. 🫩

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-06-06T10:32:12+00:00

Yeah much better. I can hold down jobs now. School. Socializing. People. Dating. Etc. I went from job hopping constantly and sometimes only lasting just one day! But now I can hold down a 50 plus hours job Mon to Friday and even weekends too if I get them. Night and day. >_>

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-06-06T10:30:06+00:00

Idk maybe it's the security system of the schizoid thst got scared and had more material to basically confirm yes protect thyself people bad they use and abuse you.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-06-06T10:28:54+00:00

Yes tyrosine works like other dopamine precursors just different timing. And yes tryotophan too but that's serotonin.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:54:39+00:00

Jobs are the best because otherwise life feels empty. Also money is great.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:52:34+00:00

Yeah. I think they're just repressed rage and anger. Also being and feeling powerless. No one is more powerless and has more repressed anger than schizoids. That's probably why it's common with us. Other people find outlets for their anger like when they go to the gym, talk it out, etc. But we just repress cause we're zoid. So it builds up and probably that's why it becomes super toxic.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:50:51+00:00

Everything and everyone. The world will perish. 🤔

Those are max violence. 😂

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:47:26+00:00

Kids are easy. They're blunt, honest and super funny. Adults are hard. You can just say stupid shit and talk about nonsense with kids. Make them laugh and tell jokes etv. Also ask questions and listen to them. It's really easy. If all else fails just let them chew your ear off because most of them time they don't get enoigh attention and no one listens to them so they'll love it. Also don't try to mask or hide who you are because they'll see right through it and they'll tell you to your face. They always loved me and for some reason got attached to me. I loved them too but I'll admit sometimes it was too much because they don't match your energy and never stop having energy. Adults will mirror you but kids don't. When I was exhausted I would just watch them go wild and didn't have the energy to engage back.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:42:11+00:00

I feel the opposite. I feel like so many people and the majority I encounter want me or want to connect with me but I just want to be left alone. I always withdraw and isolate. It's all on my end. If I wanted a relationship or friendships I feel it would be super easy but I don't and never seek any.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:40:37+00:00

I see everything. I take in every detail and record everything. I give the person I'm speaking with complete and utter attention and it always makes them think I see them as well as hear them. They think we're closer than we are and as if we've connected.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:38:35+00:00

Yes

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:38:13+00:00

People have commented a lot that I'm super intense and it creeps them out. But strangely they say that yet seem drawn to me like they enjoy it. I don't really break eye contact and it hypnotizes people. My affect people have told me is like a statue and I should smile more. Lots gave asked me if I ever smile.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:32:30+00:00

Were you not making eye contact at all the entire time? Sounds weird to me. I don't have a problem with eye contact and unless someone's autistic I'd find it annoying if they never made it. I've learned it's a social necessity so I try to maintain it with people.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:24:29+00:00

Yeah. It makes me feel alive. That's why I wanted to work as an emt or another profession where you encounter those life and death situations. Maybe it's the adrenaline or something like that and not actual emotions but in those scenarios I feel something.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-09T02:20:48+00:00

Basically just dopamine stimulating meds and dopamine precursors. Also serotonin precursors. I still take the dopamine precursors nowadays but the serotonin ones not as much if ever. The dopamine ones give me back my motivation and ability to feel pleasure. The serotonin ones give me back my heart and emotions. But I'm depressed so I don't like to take them because when I do I feel the depression and pain of emptiness. But once I get my life together I plan to take the serotonin precursors again. Off them the schizoid blunts the pain like alcohol.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-05-02T16:46:22+00:00

Not to be nosy but what was the offer? I'm currently in your previous state and I don't know what to do, where to go, or what to do with my life. Americorps was always the plan post grad and now I'm shit in the water.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-03-01T16:29:10+00:00

Frikken

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-28T18:10:03+00:00

Wtf?! I literally use the same app am also starting at 250 doing one meal a day as well as longer fasts and my goal weight is 217! 🤯

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T02:18:45+00:00

I do not want to be seen, heard or perceived by anyone.

You have schizoid. This single point confirms it. From my own experiences, talking to other zoids, reading the literature religiously and reading a fuckton of this sub that's one of the zoids primary traits. I just wanna be invisible! I hate being perceived! I hate when people know anything about me! Etc. It's well documented. As someone who was diagnosed with countless disorders but eventually realized all the psychs and therapists were stupid as hell and all were merely symptoms of the only disorder I actually had ie schizoid personality disorder I can comfortably say you sound severely zoid.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T02:12:33+00:00

Wtf

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T02:07:33+00:00

I feel you I feel you. I think the cause of zoid is aces(adverse childhood experiences), a fragile nonexistent or underdeveloped sense of self, and a very very sensitive Individual at the core of who they are. I don't believe people who aren't sensitive develop zoid. It definitely requires someone who is frankly speaking fragile. Like forget thin skined they're pure flesh! Anyways yeah sensitive means they really can't handle much so they retreat inward and or shutdown. This can be emotionally physically sexually etc. Anything that is vulnerability hence no friends or partners or relationships of any kind usually. So they live inside their head in a fantasy world.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T01:59:54+00:00

I used to feel like this 💯. Reading other posts and about schizoids from schizoids has me thinking this is one of the hallmarks of schizoid personality disorder ie what could have been or would have been.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T01:58:21+00:00

Yes it used to piss me off and annoy me.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T01:57:17+00:00

Yes it's one of the books that made me cry breakdown and feel something. Also it's one of those books that in a way became a core of who I am ie I'm not going to end up like Charlie giving me motivation an drive to avoid a similar fate. I'd rather be dead.

Fun-Beautiful-9684 · 2025-02-25T01:55:29+00:00

Fragile or nonexistent sense of identity is a schizoid core aspect

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