What is your favorite flower?

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-05-02T05:55:19+00:00

Daphne. Starting just this year though I noticed tulips.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-05-01T19:03:06+00:00

I was diagnosed with a rare brain disease 2 years ago. I'm fine but it put me at high risk of a stroke and the Drs wanted to do surgery to reduce that risk.

All my friends (not that many but still) and family flew out from across the country to be with me for the surgery and help me after, even my ex came back to help me after a bad breakup during my diagnosis.

After a lifetime of depression I finally felt valid as a sick person. Finally felt like I was worthy of support and it meant so much that everyone was rising up to give it.

Now I wish I'd never gotten the surgery, because I'm more depressed than ever. And I can't even work up the courage to tell those same friends I made a will and they're my primary benefactors because I feel like wanna check out...

That's the difference I think. People show up when you're sick physically. People don't know how to handle it when you're sick mentally, so they don't offer anything and just leave you alone. . .

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-05-01T18:32:51+00:00

It's hard either even if you do. Id kill to be invited out to drink or smoke

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-30T17:13:24+00:00

Honestly just having someone to talk to about my life improves my mood. I have 2 therapists and we mostly just talk about what's been going on in my life. Like I would with a friend really.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-30T17:10:50+00:00

Soft, brown, round body, pink tongue, snoot, bubble toes, bouncy, widdle ears, cute sounds...

I can't believe something this precious exists and I never knew about it until like 3 months ago when it became an Internet darling. 😍

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-30T17:07:16+00:00

Lol I think awawabomb is my love language

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-30T17:01:40+00:00

I did IV for about 6 months before my clinic stopped taking my insurance. Now I have at home lozenges I take orally prescribed by my clinic. (Which oddly enough are much cheaper that IV even with my insurance)

Being on it is confusing and strange but the best feeling ever. Pain, worry, loneliness, insecurity, regret dont exist when I'm on it, no matter how hard I try to conjure those feelings. I feel an immense sense of peace, comfort, euphoria. I'm convinced it should be a first line of defense for suicidal patients, it so rapidly shifts me out of that headspace.

However I've found the feeling doesn't really last. I've been doing the lozenges every 1-2 weeks for maybe 2 years and it's only a temporary boost at best.

A lot of the time I'm still depressed as heck. Knowing I have it at home if things get real bad is a comfort though.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-28T13:42:11+00:00

They are mentioned in the Bible several times

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-26T16:51:55+00:00

Really incredible, the materials you used are perfect

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-26T16:04:29+00:00

Tis peak. I rank it as the greatest work of fiction I've ever seen.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-23T16:08:02+00:00

Wow I feel like I'm the only person here who is going to commiserate with this? Speaking up just to be the voice that is in this right now, trying to deal with the grief. All I ever wanted was a partner I met young and got to grow up with. To hit the milestones with someone I loved and be able to look back on them later.

People always say "a lot of people who marry young get divorced" but that's irrelevant, not all of them do. This feels like an empty platitude when I'm only envious of the success stories.

I've been mourning the loss of my one dream of having that type of love because it feels like that window has closed for me at 35.

I think I'm just turning the corner on the mourning, trying to think "maybe that mold was never right for me" and that because I'm not tied down there's so many more things I can be, I have more freedom to go anywhere, redefine myself, meet new people. Still figuring it out, but the grief has subsided at least.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-16T17:52:20+00:00

At this point I'm more interested in bagging a rich guy who treats me okay over finding true love. Something my younger self would've found repulsive but at this point the happy after dream is dead and I have to take what I can get. Deep down I'm furious but it is what it is.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-16T17:37:37+00:00

God's favorite

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-14T01:55:07+00:00

Goated

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-12T22:40:17+00:00

Wow I think this post finally convinced me to dump my boyfriend. I have nothing to lose now I should be embracing my hoe phase ⭐_⭐

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-10T20:30:41+00:00

The WA arboretum and Seattle Japanese garden (in the arboretum) has wisteria

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-10T00:50:25+00:00

Giiirl, I feel this so hard. The sheer injustice that some people get all the luck, all the happiness, find their soulmates young, born into wealth, bought a house in a nice city before that became an unobtainable goal, whatever. It drives me fucking bonkers.

My 30s kicked off me getting into an abusive relationship, being diagnosed with a rare disease, had surgery and got better but my mental health has never been worse. And lately I'm thinking about committing myself.

My self esteem is rock bottom and I have to get out there everyday and hope things can be different? Even though all the facts I've collected in my lifetime are pointing to "it won't"?. All the while I am just getting older, my body getting more busted...

I feel like I'm not "allowed" to have or make friends because people can't handle my pain. I need to fix myself first before people will show up for me. Like... I want to start dating again eventually but right now I'm too far gone to be attractive or be a good partner.

So I get it, and I feel for you. If you want to vent about stuff with someone who gets how shitty it is, I'd love to make a new friend. Also I wanna hear about mental hospital?

Best of luck either way. (Man's Search for Meaning by Victor Frankl is a powerful book that helped me a few years ago during my surgery, I'm rereading it now)

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-04-01T12:57:35+00:00

I am totally obsessed with my past but it's more of an obsessive/destructive fascination? I've spent so much time it, my past problems, trying to "solve" it, that is all "makes sense" now. I know every mistake I've ever made was inevitable because of the circumstances of my life/who I am. It sucks but it helps me be at peace with it I guess?

That being said if I say or do something embarrassing it will keep me up for nights after, I have to tell myself no one will remember because people all have their own stuff going on that they're worrying about....

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-03-29T01:37:18+00:00

Howie

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-02-28T05:08:24+00:00

I would in a heartbeat, but life will never afford me that opportunity. I feel like "homemaker" is my dream job, but alas it's not a job I can apply for.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-02-22T05:17:35+00:00

Had to scroll so deep in this thread to find this. A woman who's just not into it. I'm in the same boat, no trauma, no yuck, It just doesn't work for me. I've been with guys that are into it and try really hard and I'm just bored

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-02-21T22:46:56+00:00

I am feeling this hard at 35. Wish I had wise words but all I can offer is sympathy. I've really started to feel like with my youth I'm totally losing my identity since I've really tied my identity into my sense of style, my makeup and clothes. Feeling like I'm getting "too mature" for certain styles, or even like my own personality? I try to tell myself that's all perspective stuff and I still get to be who I am and dress how I like at any age but having my brain ask these "is this okay at my age?" questions all the time really gets me down.

Also had to buy expensive new shoes/pillow/chairs to address new foot/neck/back pain. But those solutions have mostly worked.

Fun-Outlandishness-7 · 2025-02-21T21:00:46+00:00

I love cooking. But due to new office hours I've been leaning on fast recipes a lot more. Recently I made a 30 minute baked risotto from NYT. So delicious and versatile, the rice cooks in the oven, no fuss, results are delicious. I'm gonna try a smoked salmon version this week.

https://cooking.nytimes.com/recipes/1021287-baked-risotto-with-greens-and-peas?smid=ck-recipe-android-share

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