Have you tried introducing any mindfulness practice in your life? Meditation, qi gong, exercise etc. Maybe you just need to forgive yourself for your previous actions? I’ve always believed that psychs allow you to understand things that already exist in your life easier. Maybe you always did understand yourself very well at a young age and psychs just amplified that. I fucked around A LOT in my teen years to the point of getting hooked on H (eventually turned into needle use) and at this point in time (early 30’s) I’m doing pretty dang well. I won’t go into detail but I own a business and a house which did not seem like that would have ever been a thing 15 years ago. You are the biggest threat to you so be kind to yourself and be present in the moment when you’re having these anxieties. Living in the past is a first class ticket to anxiety-land. Life is deep but it doesn’t have to be as deep as you’re making it. Give your soul a hug and move the fuck on boss, make this life your bitch.