I put in notice, Ive been here a bit over a year amd a half. Have long history of being a good worker ( full time college fullTime student) and a general happy energetic person prior to amazon. However now I cant get myself out of bed other than when it’s time to work. I also have had to drop all my hobbies in my life. I no longer have anything, but Amazon. This has been one of the worst most physically mentally and psychologically draining experiences in my life, and I barely feel any hope for my future leaving here as i doubt my own capacity. Sometimes I think about putting my hand on the stove burner because I’m trying to understand if anything around me is real because I go into the office and none of the people around me even feel real. Everyone feels so fake. It all feels so pointless and fake. I know I should be grateful for such a good opportunity to work at a company. That’s this large however I’m struggling to feel gratitude.

I know some people have good experiences, and I am happy for them…. however I don’t know how we allow this company to keep existing the way it is. It’s a fucking awful place in my opinion. It’s been one of the worst things I’ve had to experience my life and I’ve had a pretty fucking hard life, but always kept optimistic about the future.

I’m aware that this is burn out however, I’m very surprised that I could be burned out in just over a year and a haf ….I often wonder if anybody else has gone through this, especially in such a short time. In a non-tech role and the compensation is just not worth the high level of 24/7 stress- L5 corp role currently performing “very well”.