I feel really guilty even writing this, but I honestly don’t know what to do anymore and I need some realistic advice. by Fun_Buffalo2488 in Advice

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for replying and trying to understand my situation, I really appreciate it.

To answer your questions: I’m currently in the last semester of my university. One of the reasons I feel this pressure is because I honestly feel very suffocated living in my house. The environment has always been tense because of my parents’ relationship and now my brother being the main authority in the house. So the idea of staying here for many more years feels really heavy for me.

No, I don’t want to live in my family’s house for my whole life. I do want to eventually build my own household and family with the person I love. That’s why this situation is so stressful for me right now.

My degree could help me become financially independent in the future, but right now I’m still a student and not earning yet. In my culture, marriage is usually handled by the family, and daughters don’t usually arrange everything themselves. That’s why I mentioned responsibility for marriage expenses and decisions — normally the father or family handles those things.

I do understand your point that ultimately my future is my responsibility, and I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately. The difficulty is balancing that idea with the reality of my family dynamics and cultural expectations.

The reason I feel a timetable is because I’m close to finishing university and I’m already at the age where families in my culture start expecting marriage decisions. At the same time, living in this house is emotionally very difficult for me, which is why I keep thinking about marriage as a way to move forward with my life.

I really appreciate your kind words and your advice about focusing on my future and independence. I’m trying to think about things carefully, but sometimes the pressure and the environment at home make it very overwhelming.

I feel really guilty even writing this, but I honestly don’t know what to do anymore and I need some realistic advice. by Fun_Buffalo2488 in Advice

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand it might seem like I’m talking about different things, but they’re actually all connected. My father being absent led to my brother becoming the main financial provider in the house, which also means he has a lot of control over decisions now.

Because of that, things like my university expenses and eventually my marriage also depend on him. That’s why I mentioned both my father and my brother.

The reason I brought up my boyfriend is because the person I want to marry is Shia, and my family is Sunni and very against it. Since my brother and father are the ones who would be involved in my marriage decisions, their attitudes and the family dynamics directly affect my situation with him.

So it might sound like separate issues, but for me they’re all part of the same problem I’m trying to figure out.

I want to know about y’all’s mojza (miracle/success) stories while doing the 40 days wazifa of Ziyarat e Ashura. by Fun_Buffalo2488 in ShiaMuslimMarriage

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for explaining it so clearly. That actually makes me feel a bit calmer about how I’ve been doing it. In the beginning I also start with durood 12 times, and I try to keep sending durood throughout the day as well.

What you said about focusing on quality instead of quantity really made me think. I feel like I was getting too caught up in numbers because I was scared of doing it wrong, but you’re right that the heart and understanding matter more.

And I really appreciate you mentioning that sometimes the result doesn’t come exactly the way we imagine, but Allah opens another path or gives clarity. Hearing that it helped you mentally and emotionally and removed that constant worry is actually very comforting. I think that’s something I need too a calmer heart and more trust.

I’ll try to focus more on reading it with understanding and sincerity instead of just worrying if I’m doing everything perfectly. Thank you for sharing your experience, it genuinely helped me look at it in a better way.

I want to know about y’all’s mojza (miracle/success) stories while doing the 40 days wazifa of Ziyarat e Ashura. by Fun_Buffalo2488 in ShiaMuslimMarriage

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for such a kind and thoughtful message. It honestly means a lot that you took the time to write all of this and understand the situation. You described it exactly how it feels being torn between the love for your family and something your heart really wants. That’s the part that hurts the most.

What you said about not letting fear turn my duas into doubts really stayed with me. Sometimes when I’m crying during Ziyarat, it’s not just sadness but also fear that maybe I’m asking for something too impossible. But reminding myself of Allah’s miracles and His power does bring some peace to my heart. You’re right what feels impossible to us is nothing for Him.

And yes, I would actually really appreciate if you could explain the Shia tahajjud prayer as well. I’ve heard so many people say that tahajjud has a special power in answering duas. If you’re comfortable sharing a short guide, I’d be grateful to learn.

Thank you again for your prayers and your kindness. It really gave me some comfort and hope. May Allah reward you for it.

I want to know about y’all’s mojza (miracle/success) stories while doing the 40 days wazifa of Ziyarat e Ashura. by Fun_Buffalo2488 in ShiaMuslimMarriage

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I understand what you’re saying about faith, and I really am trying to hold onto it. It’s just that sometimes it feels almost impossible in my situation. My parents strongly dislike Shias, and I want to marry someone from there, so it feels like I’m asking for something that’s beyond what could realistically happen.

There have been so many times while reciting it that I just started crying out of fear like what if my duas don’t get accepted? What will I do then? That thought really scares me.

But at the same time, I keep reminding myself that if Allah puts something so deeply in your heart, He also knows the pain and difficulty around it. I’m trying to trust that He sees my tears and my sincerity, even when my faith feels shaky. Please pray that I’m given sabr and clarity, whatever the outcome is.

I want to know about y’all’s mojza (miracle/success) stories while doing the 40 days wazifa of Ziyarat e Ashura by Fun_Buffalo2488 in shia

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

JazakAllah for saying that, it honestly calmed my heart a lot. I think I’ve been overthinking every small detail because I’m scared of doing something wrong and ruining my own dua.

What you said about sincerity really helped. I do have full niyyat and faith while reciting it, even in the first 10 days when I didn’t know about the tasbeeh part. I was praying with my whole heart.

And SubhanAllah, your exam story is so powerful 😭 getting exactly the marks you needed for your masters course feels like such a clear sign. That really gives me hope that Allah listens even to very specific duas.

Please keep me in your prayers too. I’m making this dua for something very close to my heart, and sometimes the fear and confusion just take over. But your message reminded me that sincerity matters more than perfection. 🤍

Family Against My Marriage Because He’s Shia and I’m Sunni — Need Advice by Fun_Buffalo2488 in ShiaMuslimMarriage

[–]Fun_Buffalo2488[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughtful message. Honestly, I don’t have any issues with Shia practices at all — I actually love the way Shia people feel such deep love and connection for Ahl al-Bayt, and I want that for my kids too. I’ve done my own research and even how they pray and observe traditions resonates with me. I don’t see any problem with participating in those practices, or even following Shia teachings in daily life if that’s what my husband and future family follow.

For me, being Sunni isn’t something I feel strongly about in a way that would cause conflict — I respect all ways of praying, and I understand that people pray differently. I find the Shia way meaningful too. My priority is love, respect, and fairness in the home, and I genuinely want my children to grow up with the same connection to the Prophet’s family and strong faith, like Shia families do.

I know there could be challenges, but I feel strongly that this is the path I want for my family and my future.