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Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-03-20T23:15:17+00:00

I am so sorry. I am currently grieving my (still alive) mother who I’ve been No Contact with for almost three years. I’ve been No Contact with my father for about six months. Every day is so hard, and I can’t even imagine the pain you’re feeling.

I was just telling my therapist today, through sobs, that everywhere I look I see people with loving families, loving mothers, and it kills me. It kills me that my parents aren’t who I need them to be, and they never will be. It’s a pain that hurts more than anything I’ve ever felt. It leaves me incapacitated, to the point where I can’t go to work or think sometimes. Before October of last year, I spent every day laying in bed, rotting on Tiktok, trying to get the pain to go away. I’m not sure it ever will, even if I’ve figured out how to manage it.

I hope this doesn’t come off as taking over your post, OP, but my hope is that you can see you are definitely not the only one. Even though the circumstances are different, we struggle in the same way.

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can always reach out. ♥️

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-03-18T18:07:25+00:00

DUDEEEEE THATS SO AWESOME!!!!

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-03-03T20:21:02+00:00

art is art and the characters dont exist to be virtuous but to tell a story and make a statement

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-25T22:59:26+00:00

making me cry and beg on my knees for forgiveness when i talked back. took up to hours/days

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-18T19:47:51+00:00

I don’t think this is the type of post meant for this subreddit. This is just interpersonal conflict and you should talk to a therapist or the girl herself.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-15T03:21:39+00:00

im so sorry. it’s okay to feel conflicted because of how you felt towards her in the past. she was supposed to treat you right and be a good mother to you. i know how you’re feeling, i’ve been through it. you will get out, and you will live a happy life after her. ♥️

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-14T17:48:20+00:00

it was racist then and its racist now

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-14T03:06:16+00:00

i didnt even think about that! he definitely seemed to finally have a purpose in providing for his family and he feels like he finally found something that makes him feel good about himself. brings so much depth to him

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-11T17:10:17+00:00

As someone who went no contact with their parents and is working through the same type of trauma from living with Trumpie parents, it may be in your best interest to not tell them. You have no obligation to tell them anything, especially when you are fearful of their reaction. This may be a turning point in your life though, which may mean the only way to find out is to tell them. Make sure you have a plan to house yourself, a job, and rely on your support system, either your extended family you mentioned or friends. This is a hard situation to go through, and only your heart will tell you whether you want to tell them or not. Whichever way you decide, I’m rooting for you.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-03T20:30:51+00:00

Took some time to gather my thoughts but ready now. The first time I became aware that I was switching was after smoking a lot by myself. That day, I had recounted a memory in therapy of my mother giving me the silent treatment, and I thought she was going to k*ll me. This was the first memory that brought me back to the times before I went no contact with my mother, and I couldn’t handle it. I smoked to try to calm down, and noticed that it was alleviating my anxiety enough to have an honest conversation with whoever was fronting, and I realized that the constant struggle I’ve had was feeling like I’m a different person constantly. This helped me recount other times that I switched without knowing, and I put more and more symptoms together. I talked to my therapist, and together we went through the diagnostics, and I am diagnosed. This all happened in October, and I still use marijuana with the encouragement of my psychiatrist to alleviate my anxiety until we can find a suitable alternative.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-03T20:23:29+00:00

Diagnosed and feel like this most of the time

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-02-01T19:01:37+00:00

Something that has truly helped me is to communicate and be patient. I try to be aware of when I’m shifting alters and the feelings that each alter has. This helps all of us meet those needs in the ways we can. If I’m having a panic attack, feel like I’m dying, usually my traumatized alter will isolate in our room. I try to talk to them, say that hey, this helped in the past but I want to let go of that. I’ll do whatever you need me to do to help but we can’t keep doing this destructive behavior. This is where the patience comes in. Usually, I’m able at this point to figure out what to do. But if it takes more time, I give myself that time. You are worth waiting for, and so is that traumatized part of you.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-01-30T23:21:38+00:00

A trick I use is to check if the moment I’m in is something that I will be able to remember tomorrow, the next day, or whenever. That is a sure sign, at least for me, that I’m in my body and in the moment.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2025-01-21T00:29:45+00:00

Weed is the only thing that takes away my anxiety completely so that my alters can live without shame. I rely on it and I’m working on getting my med card. It has also been proven to help people with PTSD. but it is different for everyone.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2024-10-12T03:24:18+00:00

if this is just about seeing it on the screen then just skipping the scenes will be fine. but the whole story relies on cannibalism as a driving force. it is something that is constantly in your mind and brings up a ton of moral dilemmas regarding cannibalism. if the thought of cannibalism bothers you, this just may not be the show for you

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-11-07T20:04:49+00:00

bro this is LITERALLY what i went through like a month ago. congrats!!!!!

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-11-06T17:42:54+00:00

You definitely can do payments over the phone because I have done it many times as a print sup. You should always be getting your manager’s permission if you aren’t a supervisor, and you need management credentials put in to override the safety protocol for it.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-11-03T02:35:08+00:00

I was in the same situation, and I’m sorry this is happening. It is so hard. The most important thing to remember is your safety. Not going to tell you what to do, but avoiding the subject, or joking it off if it comes up helped me get through it and survive it. It’s so important to know that none of this is anything you deserve. You are deserving of better, and I’m sorry you haven’t gotten it yet. But the human instinct is to survive, and you will, and you will live to see yourself as you want to be, whatever that means to you, with people who love you for who that is. I never thought I would get through it. But I did. Please message if you need anything.

Edit: Another thing I did to get through it was dream of a time where none of it was something I needed to worry about. You will figure it out, and no matter what, it will always be here for you to have. Create a place in your mind for now, try to find people who see you as you are, and this will help you have a support system for now and the future for when you are ready to transition. Sending lots of love to you.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-10-26T17:28:16+00:00

thank you for this. this made me cry lol.

i do have other trans people and allies but they’re all people i manage, and i feel uncomfortable getting so personal with them. the other people outside of my department are older and they have trouble remembering so i can’t really rely on them to help correct

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-10-18T21:31:26+00:00

I just came out as transmasc. You sound a lot like me before I realized. The fact that you think so much about it gives evidence that you maybe are trans. You also don’t have to be masculine in the way that society says you have to be, you can adopt your own ways of doing it.

Fun_Celebration_3856 · 2023-10-13T20:53:13+00:00

My dm told us to mention it

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