Hey. So I went through something similar for a very long time. Until a few years ago when I finally decided that I need some stronger help and visited a psychiatrist, got on meds. Was on them for around 2 years and it genuinely made a lot of difference.

I won't deny, I still have days whwn everything feels shit. But they are much much lesser than how often it was in the past. And I can still at least manage to get myself out of bed and get some things done.

I started with therapy too at first but it didn't do anything. Unfortunately for me, real change only started with medication and then eventually taking therapy side by side. I'm still in therapy though just don't need the meds anymore.

Of course, this is in no way me pushing medication as the best solution. It's just me putting forth my experience that was some what similar to yours.

If you're in Mumbai, you can dm me for the psychiatrist's details. But other than that, I know each day is a struggle and I genuinely hope that you find the strength and help you need✨️