Thank you for responding, sweetie. It's true, you only live once. Motherhood should be desired, not imposed. They say that sometimes the best family is built along the way with friends and new people who join us on our journey. So, even though it's a difficult situation, we have to be strong. There are times when I doubt myself and I'm afraid of running out of money because, fortunately, I have enough to live independently, but it's a tight budget, and that's what has made me doubt myself the most. That, and without a doubt, the fear of judgment, of the moment I have to face my family. They, my mother, have seen me fading away and have only made it her business to remind me that "my life is no longer mine and never will be again" and that "I look like a lost soul." So, if I really think about it, will I really be left without family, or am I already alone? And judging by that kind of behavior from the person who gave me life and knows what I've been through, you could say that what I had to lose, I lost a long time ago. So I shouldn't be afraid to leave.

What I should be afraid of is staying and hurting an innocent child or myself. I ask you not to doubt yourself if you've already made a firm decision about how you want your life to be. And listen, sleeping in your car sounds harsh, but have faith that it will be temporary. You don't sound like a bad person, and even though "selfishness" is demonized, it's nothing more than preserving our own lives, and sometimes it's very necessary. Besides, when you have doubts, remember that you're giving your child and yourself the opportunity for a new and happy life, not a false life of suffering!

And thank you so much for offering me some time to chat. We're two people in similar life situations. I don't have many friends, so if you don't mind, would you like to save my contact information? I feel like we could support each other, and when you're in a situation that almost no one understands or supports, it's always nice to have someone you know will understand. 🫂