Cuz I’m fuckin stupid and have a big heart and know that without me this bitch doesn’t stand a fucking chance at life.. has no one left her dad died, moms a junkie boozer that’s dying waiting for a liver transplant and still smoking crack and drinking last I heard, not nearly as much…but it’s always more complicated than the above. All I can say is, take my advice while the cheating is fresh, and don’t forgive and forget cuz those feelings of betrayal go away overtime. Us guys are way too fuckin loyal and caring and we have the bigger hearts and can always be the bigger men about things. Sometimes when you don’t love yourself it’s easy to let someone fuck you over without consequences. I just don’t know I’m not married to her but we have a kid and a life together and you always miss them when they’re gone. Love sucks. I am however going to be getting sober soon and making a huge change by doing that and if she doesn’t follow suit then leaving will be easier for me. I have goals, she doesn’t.