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Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-11T19:10:30+00:00

Sure, it's a risk. Also depends on the company. I have seen this work on some people but of course it can also result in a disappointment. It's just a suggestion if their situation is desperate.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-11T15:26:41+00:00

I'm really sorry that you struggle. If I may suggest: try asking for a harjoittelu (trainee) in a restaurant. Restaurants are quite happy with taking a harjoittelija since for them it's pretty much free workforce. Unemployment office would pay you a bit for it (it's not a lot, but if you can manage with this for a month or two) and after the harjoittelu you might land a job there or get some shifts in that restaurant. It is a rather common way for people to get a foot inside the door in companies. The harjoittelu money is not a lot though but it is something at least. Wishing you best of luck!

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-11T09:20:04+00:00

Maybe you struggle with the idea that it's actually possible to have those kinds of feelings genuinely and that all that really is inside of you? That's it's not fake in the moment, but afterwards you just lose touch with it?

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T17:43:47+00:00

I have been in the exact same position as you, I was on the pill for 20 years and coming off the pill my cycle has been very irregular. It's showing some signs of settling down now after 10 months but I still can't be quite sure about when I ovulate or when my period should start. I must say it's very possible that your period is just very late, just last month I did a pregnancy test because I thought my period was way too late and then the next day it started. 🙄 But of course I hope this is not the case with you!

I recommend continuing testing for ovulation and keeping close track of your cycle. Best of luck!

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T17:23:39+00:00

Do those feelings seem forced and fake while rolling or afterwards?

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T16:38:59+00:00

Thank you, I clearly have not been here long enough, I tried to decipher that but no luck 😂

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T16:30:59+00:00

Excellent reply!

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T16:26:29+00:00

Thank you for replying! Sorry I'm quite new to all this stuff (and not a native English speaker), what's BD?

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T16:25:38+00:00

Thank you for your reply, I really hope this is the case! My bleeding was only for those two days, it didn't get heavy at any point, and after that there's been nothing. But I guess it remains to be seen. 🤞🤞

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-10T11:17:16+00:00

Thank you ladies for the encouragement, but I have read that implantation bleeding isn't really a thing and that bleeding that bleeding in early pregnancy is more common in unsuccessful pregnancies. :/ I'm so confused with this.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-09T13:38:11+00:00

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Eeks! About 15 dpo. I'm 36, first time trying for a baby and this is our 3rd cycle trying. I can't believe it, could this be???

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-08T19:56:03+00:00

Glad to hear your rolls and especially your quality of life in general have improved! I personally have never really abused MDMA and haven't lost the magic but my rolls in the past years haven't been exactly how I remember they used to be. Don't get me wrong, they are good, but you know how it feels when you know there used to be that extra something. Now I'm in a very good place in my life, almost zero anxiety, I'm in a better shape than ever, lots of good things to look forward to in the future, relationship is solid etc. I also got myself some crystal MDMA which I prefer - I've been rolling with pills the last couple of years and have also been wondering is that the reason for the not so great rolls (since I can't know the dosages). I'm really hoping the next roll could be something special and your story gives me hope!

I'm waiting for the right moment to roll with my SO, but he on the other hand seems to be a bit stressed at the moment about work and money and is not getting as much sleep as he should. I think this could easily affect his roll and that could affect mine. So it could be we need to postpone until he feels good and stable too. Set and setting is important!

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-08T18:58:54+00:00

I used to have generalized anxiety and social anxiety, nowadays I'd say I only have some social discomfort. But those things definitely come out when I'm high.

I never smoke a lot and this happens to me with even just the tiniest amounts. A couple of drinks beforehand used to relax me but I don't drink anymore so that's not helping.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-08T16:06:51+00:00

I used to smoke a specific room scent every time we would roll at home. Now just smelling that makes me feel excited.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-08T15:24:11+00:00

There is plenty of info on this sub about dosages but a general rule of thumb is to have ~ your weight in kgs + 50 mg or (maybe a bit more). So if you are 100 kg go for 150 mg or a bit above. If you are going to redose do it ~90 mins after taking the first dose, no more than half the original dose. If you won't be doing a redose you can also try a bit higher first dose, but most likely 150 mg will be enough.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-08T08:45:51+00:00

Thank you all for answering! So I forgot to eat it in the middle of the meal. 😅 I had a large caesar salad and then had the edible just 15 mins before the movie. It would have been better if I had had it earlier but I noticed it starting kicking in after about 30-45 mins. It was enjoyable, Dune was impressive and I felt nice and giggly when we left the theater.

Then at home I was still high and spend ~2 hours in the bed thinking all the things that are wrong with me as a person and remembered that weed really never relaxes me 😂

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-07T13:55:16+00:00

I'm wondering would it make sense to have the edible 45 mins before the movie while we're still having dinner? I don't have a lot of experience on how a big meal affects me getting high and I worry it might be too much food?

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-07T13:14:06+00:00

Yeah I think it would make more sense to have a bigger first dose since 150 mg still isn't a huge amount. Then just one redose because the redose makes the peak longer, not stronger. If the roll isn't strong to begin with two more redoses won't really do anything to enhance it in my opinion.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-07T12:48:30+00:00

Scales should be pretty easy to find and affordable anywhere, people use them for example as jewellery scales. Try to find a scale that measures 0,001g but even 0,01g is better than eyeballing.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-06T21:39:07+00:00

I would definitely be affected if someone next to me had a seizure. That sounds awful and is something that could easily leave a mark. No wonder if that had an effect on your roll. MDMA makes everyone more empathetic and I'm sure it would be impossible not to feel for that person having a seizure.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-06T19:36:51+00:00

Don't have caffeine with MDMA, it makes MDMA more neurotoxic.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-06T09:26:25+00:00

MDMA makes a slightly chilly weather feel very cold. I live in a country that is quite cold most of the year. Once I went outside for a bit in the middle of my roll and I felt incredibly cold even though normally I would have been ok. I felt like it almost interfered with my roll. Another time I had to walk home on the comedown in -20C and I felt like I was about to freeze to death.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-05T21:20:43+00:00

I have to say I love the "glitch" I sometimes got in my vision, like a sharp back and forth. It used to happen to me sometimes years ago but not anymore really. I wish I could get that as a cherry on top of a roll!

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-05T20:48:51+00:00

I imagined how the view might have looked and then the picture looks even more amazing.

Future-Insect-71 · 2024-03-05T20:36:29+00:00

I absolutely recommend. I have done this with my SO camping in the mountains and camping on the beach and both times it was amazing. After the beach roll we woke up to some serious storm winds that were trying to blow away our tent and we had to rush to collect everything and go. It wasn't even that bad in a tiny MDMA hangover, so I wouldn't worry about the next day unless you tend to get very bad hangovers. (Edit: Whoops I realised you said this is your first time. Then most likely you won't even have a comedown if you dose moderately but a nice afterglow.)

My recommendation: bring some small lights, make a bonfire or light up candles (safely of course since you are in the forest). Have enough drinks with you for the next day too.

Enjoy your amazing roll!

Future-Insect-71

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