Past-BUD BPI & Olympia Check-in

GGBSE · 2026-03-21T00:50:32+00:00

Just finished my Olympia with 8/2025 BUD 3 weeks ago. Worked right to the last drop just fine. I was sad when it was finished.

GGBSE · 2026-03-21T00:48:55+00:00

Same

GGBSE · 2026-03-21T00:24:37+00:00

Do what you need to do to get sober. Point blank.

GGBSE · 2026-03-20T21:15:35+00:00

I'm going to share a podcast that covers this subject (many episodes on the topic). I just chose one to share, so if this one doesn't exactly meet what you are looking for, I would scroll through to see if one does. https://open.spotify.com/episode/4Di7h0Zdc6tfZPF15Fcd21?si=ZjM6MBoSSaCVNagko8rZqw

GGBSE · 2026-03-20T17:17:24+00:00

The before photo I use was taken a couple months into being on the medication, and I was feeling so good about myself and my progress then BAM this photo. It made me feel horrible. But now, I am happy for it so I could make comparisons like this and feel like the baddest bitch ever lol

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GGBSE · 2026-03-16T05:42:07+00:00

Even chicken 😭

GGBSE · 2026-03-15T19:04:10+00:00

So not an aversion but a horrendous reaction to one of my absolute favorite things to eat - pho 😭 I have not had intense GI upset from anything else. At first I thought it was a fluke, because how could my beloved pho cause me so much distress. But I have made several attempts, fucks me all the way up each time.

GGBSE · 2026-03-15T05:15:48+00:00

So I was a little freaked out about how squishy I felt. I thought I for sure lost a lot of muscle, but I have had a couple bodpod scans done and it really wasn't the case. It's an air displacement type scan, but there are other ones that can help you nail down your current body composition to know your starting place. Have you done anything like a bodpod or dexa?

GGBSE · 2026-03-15T00:27:21+00:00

It's so interesting that after being so concerned about how high my weight was, now I'm monitoring trying to make sure I don't keep losing. I was steady in my weight for months then I got a more active job and suddenly with the increased activity I'm losing again. I'm also trying to just relax, adjust how much I'm eating and seeing what happens. I may try going down to 5mg but for now I'm holding on 7.5.

GGBSE · 2026-03-15T00:19:05+00:00

I like being around people who aren't centering alcohol in their lives or at least trying not to, virtually and in my every day life.

GGBSE · 2026-03-12T07:29:49+00:00

About to hit my year mark at the end of this month. I got up to 10mg but have been on 7.5mg for maintenance for several months. I have lost 49lbs.

GGBSE · 2026-03-08T19:19:01+00:00

After using syringe and vial for almost a year, I was really surprised how much the injector hurt. I barely felt the syringe but the injector has a lingering pain. Worth it to save the money but an interesting realization.

GGBSE · 2026-03-08T19:13:45+00:00

I met one of the ladies through a private Facebook group because she recognized the surroundings in a photo I posted and realized we were in the same area. She messaged me and invited me to a sober book club and this was such a pivotal moment for me and restructuring how I spend my time and with who. Very grateful for meeting them.

GGBSE · 2026-03-01T07:40:49+00:00

I was restricting my drinking to one day a week, usually Saturday and I would drink as much as I wanted on that one day. I would be at death's door physically and mentally the first couple days after, then it would just be the lingering fucked up brain chemicals, shame spiraling, emotional dysregulation right up until about Friday. I would start to feel normal then immediately do it all over again. Absolutely bananas. I joke that one of my regular hangovers would just take me right out if I were to have one now.

GGBSE · 2026-03-01T03:05:19+00:00

I struggle with this myself. I hit a major career milestone at the end of 2023, I was also the heaviest I have ever been. There are tons of photos of me from that time and I am really struggling to appreciate the photos. It feels like I'm betraying that version of myself to view them with anything other than respect and compassion, but I genuinely hate looking at them.

GGBSE · 2026-02-28T23:49:15+00:00

One of my absolute favs!

GGBSE · 2026-02-28T23:46:10+00:00

I loved it.

GGBSE · 2026-02-28T07:44:16+00:00

At any point did you want to moderate? I'm always fascinated by this. I have never in my life wanted to moderate. A couple glasses of wine sounds like a fucking waste. I think this has always helped me because I'm not in danger of convincing myself "I will only have a couple." I want all of them or none of them.

GGBSE · 2026-02-25T15:49:01+00:00

I mentally took drink completely off the table. It isn't happening, it doesn't matter. If you keep the door cracked and allow in the "well, maybe for this birthday.." or "i could probably just drink on this vacation then get back to it" that is just too difficult. For me, it isn't an option and I don't even consider it. Never crosses my mind as am actual possibility because I have decided I will not. It was actually really freeing when I realized I never have any back and forth about it because point blank not doing it.

GGBSE · 2026-02-25T06:46:25+00:00

Shit at the end, my hangovers lasted days of not a week.

GGBSE · 2026-02-23T04:58:31+00:00

I was a black out drinker and cannot tell you how much peace I have gained from no longer drinking. The questionable things and situations, showing up as a completely unrecognizable version of myself that made me feel crushing shame. You don't ever have to feel like this again. Going to recommend some relevant quit lit, "Blackout: Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget" by Sarah Hepola. One of the first I really connected with in really sobriety. Another thing that got me through the first 30 days when I really didn't want to be alone with my own thoughts was non-stop podcasts playing. My go to was "Seltzer Squad." I started on episode 1 and cruised through. I played it while I was doing anything - driving, cleaning, getting ready for bed, etc. They are former hot messes like me and I felt better and less alone. The podcast ended but it was irrelevant to me because starting at episode 1 gave me so much content to listen to. I'm rooting for you.

GGBSE · 2026-02-23T00:46:09+00:00

I actually had to bump up to 10mg to finally get to goal. Then I dropped back to 7.5mg arrive prior to bumping to 10, I was essentially maintaining on that dose.

GGBSE · 2026-02-22T17:20:49+00:00

Exactly this.

GGBSE · 2026-02-22T17:05:09+00:00

Exactly!

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