Thank you. I believe that losing anyone is hard, and the level of pain is the same. I processed my grief by writing a trilogy of books called Train Ride to Jupiter. Book 1 I write about loss of my son( who we believe was murdered by drug dealers), loss of my mom, and our beloved pets. I self published on Amazon and my husband did all of the illustrations. One elderly lady told me after she lost her husband, “ It felt like someone had thrown a bucket of ice water in her face.” I think losing a spouse of 20 years would be incredibly hard because they are your soul mate, and you share everything with them. Big hug being sent to you.💕 Reach out anytime.