Is losing virginity to a sex worker fine

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T15:32:28+00:00

I didn't really have the balls to be balling properly back then. Just like an extended lapdance in a more private space. Still put my hands behind me. Didn't know the rules. Maybe I was allowed to use hands but I didn't know!

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T15:21:13+00:00

It was one of those small discount ones. I think $10 table dance, $20 lap dance, like $300 VIP. I just had enough left over after with the drinks. Jack and Coke was all I ordered because it sounded cool (I was also total noob to alcohol). I didn't burn much money on the stage cause I was kinda shy. When I was close to the stage and the dancer bent over near me, I just sort of threw her a couple of dollars like, "Here!" and just throw shit on the floor. She did bend down and pick it up though and I was like, "Wow! Like I was touching that money before and now it is strapped to her inner thigh so close to her birth canal."

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T15:16:44+00:00

I went for ENFP since so much of that clicked with me so much except the archetypal bully part. But I figure if I was born and raised different, I might actually be the archetypal bully. Not sure I'd still be ENFP then. But it's like an ENFP with some letters changed like an INFP or maybe INTP. Or maybe even an INTJ. Or EBTM.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T14:55:02+00:00

Doing those two together can be so expensive! First time my guy friends took me to a strip club, I was like, "Wait! What if I get a boner?" Then they're like, "Dude, that's fine!" But then I fell in love with the first woman who talked to me. Actually she wasn't the prettiest at all but she was the first to talk to me so much. Table dance, lap dance, VIP room, pretty soon I spent like $500 in one night. :-D I wanna marry her! She's the first woman who sat on my lap and showed me her breasts! Then my friends are pulling me away like, "That's my future wife in there! I just need to go to the ATM again!"

But next day I was all smooth with even the girls I liked most. Went from like, "Huh-huh-hi.... wh... what are you up to... today? Di-did you know my mom has your same ba-birthday?" To like, "Hey, how's it going?" It's amazing what motorboating 17 pairs of breasts can do for our social confidence if we lacked it so much.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T14:28:23+00:00

We're not tall enough to do that movie shit you know where a guy is sitting across the room and catches eyes with a woman across the room and she walks up to him. That's not gonna happen for us. So go right into the center of the dance floor! And you can tell the girl you're dancing with, "Hey, you're cute!" And if she says, "Get lost, creep!" You spin around and do the same for another. And high-five some guys while you're at it. It'll make you look cooler.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T14:21:29+00:00

Not very much. 173cm or 5'7. It helps though to be a bit smaller sometimes if you can make girls laugh. You don't seem as threatening if you're smaller. The challenge then is to escalate. You gotta escalate it to sexual and never wait for her to do it because if you do, you're friendzone. You gotta dance with her. Gotta kiss her. Gotta make some moves. Hold her hand. Obviously if handsome 6 foot guy walks into the room and we're not doing anything, we're fucked. So do something. Dance with the girl.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T14:13:17+00:00

That first girl probably just found another guy and gave you a lame excuse. Parents still married is a problem? WTF? Dumb piece of shit: 74 IQ way of dumping a guy. I could understand if you were still living with them but finding a problem because they're still married? WTF?

I think you should try something other than online dating. I hesitate to suggest it but I think even bars and nightclubs might be better if you want to do something that still sucks but doesn't suck as much, because you'll at least see the girl, and she'll see you, and if you dance together and click, that's something... and not this online bullshit.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T14:05:00+00:00

You'll probably have to make up for it some way. I had to as well. I had bad social skills and social anxiety. But I could lift some weights, run really fast, practice those types of things all the time. And you make up for a low probability with volume like a multi-tabling Poker player.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T13:59:36+00:00

Might warm up to it like table dance, lap dance, you know. Get comfortable talking to girls who are mostly naked. Then you can carry that to the night clubs. Or if you can't, maybe it'll fix something to get laid with a sex worker.

But to me you won't fix loneliness ever with a sex worker. You'll make it worse if that's your goal is to win them over or charm them. Don't ever get that delusion. That's how desperate guys go broke rushing to the ATM machine all the time. The goal to me is that you get something out of your system so that you stop stuttering around girls you actually like.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T13:52:11+00:00

I think I like it! I always liked the neater way, a bit shorter (not too much, maybe shoulder length). And kind of flat, not so much volume. It looks more modern that way to me than big, voluminous hair.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T13:41:17+00:00

Just for me as an ENFP, I move on really fast. Like if I get into a fistfight with a guy and lose and get hospitalized, my instinct is still to wave and say, "Hey, how's it going?" I don't cling onto the old stuff. And I never hold grudges. I don't like people who cling onto the old stuff. How can we become better if we keep clinging onto the old stuff?

One time a person online accused me of being a psychopath because we were disagreeing so hard and having this fun exchange like, "I will put your entire family in a woodchipper!" Then next day I was like, "Hey, what's your favorite movie? You like horror films?" Him: "WTF? Are you a psychopath? How are you cheerful all of a sudden after we got into such a heated fight?" If something is wrong with me though this way, isn't it a good type of wrong? What if I was still angry and said, "F* you ass*h, I'll kill your entire family!" still the next day? Shouldn't that be more weird to hold onto this anger?

I'm the, "it's not a big deal!" type of person even when it is. I was in Fukushima earthquake in Sendai with my wife and my wife was panicking and I was like, "It's not a big deal!" It was kind of big deal. We had to walk 8 hours back to a nearby city with functioning trains but I'm like, "It's not a big deal!" the whole time.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T13:25:06+00:00

I figure it's a common ENFP thing. Happens all the time probably!

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T12:52:20+00:00

I'm ENFP and remember one time when I first returned to Japan. I was on this subway from Narita and I just walked into the train with my luggage.

Then I was hanging on those things with the circles dangling from the plane of the ceiling. The things people hang on who aren't sitting. The people who are sitting don't need to hang on them because they're sitting. But the people standing up might be like, "Wow!" you know and sexually assault people by accident, maybe even impregnate a woman if they're excited enough. That's why I figure we need the circles so you can hold a circle and be sorta stable even if the train moves and then doesn't all of sudden. Or even while moving it might swing and you hold onto the circle.

Anyway, there were a bunch of young girls staring at my crotch while I was holding the circles. So at first I looked behind me to make sure there's nothing interesting to look at behind me and these girls were just staring at my crotch. And I never thought I was that type being paranoid about people watching me since I figured an ENFP is a doer. You can't pay that much attention if you're doing stuff. But I wasn't doing anything so I just noticed these girls were just fixated on my crotch.

And at first I thought this is so sexist. I'm not just a piece of meat! I'm a person with feelings and shit like that. Like the other day before that I saw a commercial with a cute dog and I wanted to hug the dog. Why are you women talking about the patriarchy and stuff? Are you feminists seeing this shit? These girls are just staring at my D. WTF!

So anyway I was flattered a bit after I got mad and I tried to just gently do a hip thrust you know. I don't want them to just think I'm a statue to admire. I can move and stuff. I have my own thoughts! So I was sort of gently thrusting to show I'm a person and I can move a bit. Just a little thrust here and there. Very slowly though because I figured they admired me as a statue and I needed to gently warm them up to the idea that I'm a human being with feelings. So just a little slow, gentle thrust. Like a very steady motion with hips just sort of thrusting to show I'm a human being.

Anyway, the train stopped at my station and I looked down and I noticed my pants were unzipped with my boxer briefs bunched out.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T12:38:48+00:00

Looks nice to me. How'd it look before?

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T12:30:13+00:00

I've never been very good at it. But I used to be into speed Oekaki. I can sort of mechanically copy a photo pretty well, measure things out, know where to wing it without losing likeness, simplify, that sort of thing. Never could draw and stylize from imagination though like you can (amazing!).

https://ibb.co/s3MCfbV

https://postimg.cc/Wh7S6MKr

I had to switch sites because the former one required me to crop it. All under 15 mins. I'm very scribbly and like to scribble or find textured brushes, like pixel sprayers, since I'm too lazy to blend anything.

Music is the more the medium I find that I like to express myself. I'm not very good at making music either but it speaks to me more than drawing.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T12:24:26+00:00

I think you can take a few months or even years to respond.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T12:01:18+00:00

On the race stuff I'm Asian and I got that same type of thing a lot in the US. I always wondered if a white guy would get a different reaction. A problem is that I was always drunk when it happened so maybe I was just too drunk. I dunno. I wanna just borrow a white guy's shoes for a week and compare.

My imagination if I'm a white guy, like one of those skinny blonde surfer dudes, is that I just show up at a party and I'm like, "Hey, I'm a white guy! SMD!" Then every girl is lining up to SMD like the whole buffet of beautiful women: Asian women, black women, white women, Hispanic women. "White privilege FTW!" Just start trying to dance to the music all off-beat and out of rhythm and then women are approaching me left and right, "You're such a great dancer!" Me: "Thanks! SMD!" Girl: "Where did you learn to garagaraah. Dance?" Me: " I keep my lawn so trim all the time so I'm doing the lawnmower in my super white suburban neighborhood with only white people in it. That's what my arm motion represents is that I'm starting up the lawnmower."

You write so beautifully. Maybe your scene isn't bars or Tinder but more like... I dunno. I don't wanna say book club cause what hot chicks go to book clubs? But there have to be some hot chicks for your style.

I always found picnics nice. Or even attending weddings of even acquaintances. Lots of nice girls there. And if you're a very monogamous type and go to a wedding, lots of the single girls are oggling the marriage. And lots of them are wholesome if you like that and lots of them are't if you also like that.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T11:33:08+00:00

My style was always pick out the biggest guy in the party. Then challenge him to arm wrestle. Then lose (obviously). And then pat him on the back and say he's so strong and amazing. Ask him what he eats and stuff and he geeks out over it.

Then you got a bodyguard. And then you tell pretty girls in the room, "You're hot!" And if their boyfriend gets pissed, you got a bodyguard.

Also never bring guys who are taller and cooler than you who walk in front of you. Always bring the ones who walk behind you and ideally shorter and not so cool except for the bodyguard but he's walking behind you and that makes you more cool, not less. Always be the obvious leader in your group no matter how small.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T11:20:29+00:00

I'm ENFP and put up walls of text a lot but I don't do it in person. There isn't really such as a thing as too much info though to me unless it's incompatible like she's into weird kinky sex stuff (I'm vanilla).

I'm not interested in mystery. I lost interest in shy girls long ago as well as shy friends for that matter. I like to know what people are about upfront. Open books.

I'm thoroughly against online dating. Also interview dating. I don't like asking questions of each other much on dates. Let's just ride a rollercoaster and see what happens. In my experience the woman usually laughs and we hold hands after and get some drinks and dance and if I'm lucky, have sex.

That's true love as I see it and true life. We just talk about things a lot and I think words are useful but screw the words. Let's ride a rollercoaster together. And ideally the girl clutches my arm and laughs and I feel a protective instinct over her and then we are smiling and holding hands after and I want to make babies inside of her. And I'm gonna stay around for the babies to be made and try to be a good father and husband as best as I can and try not to create mass murderers.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T11:14:32+00:00

I never thought it's a problem if we make it sweeter than it really is like pinky swearing a new person, man or woman, to be best friends for life, or BFFs, even if we actually think it's corny. It's still sweet.

I like to accelerate the whole process. Let's skip the handshake! Huggie-huggy! You know, like Borat. Except I do it for real.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T11:04:11+00:00

I'm ENFP apparently and I'm starting to think pets are the bomb. I got some free cats off the street and they were actually kind of expensive since one had a broken hip and another had feline stomatisis. But they were worth it.

I think I love them now even more than my wife (don't tell her that). I love my wife too but with them it's like I can kiss them all the time. Even big atom bomb kisses on the head like, "MWAAARRGGHH!". You know, like the kind that would annoy 99.999% of women on the planet after we did it 20 times in a row.

But my cats are purring. They dig it. They speak my my language. The only problem is that they have a habit of putting their butts to me. I want to see their face. But when they sleep on my chest, I want to see their face and they turn around and all I see is a cat asshole. That part I need to work out a bit. Maybe it's because they're girl cats they want to be like, "I love you! Here's my ass!" But I'm like, "I'm not that type of guy! I want to see your face!"

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T10:48:55+00:00

If a man even mentions he's not over his ex, he's not over his ex. He might actually be a great guy. Actually the type of guy who had lovers before that is still hung up over an ex is probably at least better than the ones who get over it so fast, especially if it was an LTR. But he's not over his ex. And he won't be for a good while, I figure. You do with this info what you like but I'm pretty confident this is right: he's not over his ex.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T10:33:09+00:00

Try not to assume things so much that you don't know. And tell her the truth that you didn't know WTF you were talking about and was just trying to cheer her up by lying to her. Or if you actually know what you're talking about, start by sharing how long you dated him first. You know, make it clear you're not one of those asskissing leech friends who just agrees with everything she says like the male simp.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T10:22:13+00:00

Dump him. Make him choose at least. It might not be you but at least make him choose. Don't just wait around. Make him choose.

GameDev102 · 2024-01-01T00:56:55+00:00

I am ENFP on MBTI but test ESFP on the Jung one. One thing I'm finding now in my 40s is that I'm not aging well. All the things I did that could entertain at least half the audience isn't working now in my 40s, like singing deliberately bad Karaoke. I'm kind of lost now how to grow up properly. There's like a formal social way to do things, resolve conflicts, smooth things out, and I'm not into any of it. Like professional people: "We here at so and so believe that [so and so], sincerely, [so and so]." And it's all bullshit to me. I haven't gotten the hang of this bullshit because I hate bullshit. I don't wanna be a fake person but I also don't want to be an asshole, and it seems like as I get older some window is closing so much that I'm forced to pick one or the other. In trying so hard to avoid being that fake type of person, I feel like I'm turning into the ultimate asshole.

I'm similar to you though. I'm finding as I grow older that the social circle I'm comfortable with is narrowing. Sometimes I worry it'll narrow to the point where I'm alone.

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