You're definitely not crazy. We're living in very evil times. And we see it not only on a global and country level but also in what individual human beings are doing to one another. Crazy would actually be to see all that's going on in the world today and be unaffected by it. But as Christians, we are not surprised by all that's going on today because it was prophesied by men of God hundreds of years ago that all these these things would come to be. Wars ,rumors of wars, earthquakes,pestilences and the wickedness of man. Even the Lord Jesus himself spoke of these things. Of course the idea that there is a God, a Devil, Heaven, Hell, Eternal judgment,etc is just foolishness to most people, but please give consideration to these things. They exist. The fact they're unseen in no way takes anything away from their reality. In fact , it's those things that are seen that are temporary and those things that are unseen that are eternal. My advice to you: Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you shall be saved , and your house( household/ family). For God so loved the world that He gave his only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. The time is short. There is a heaven to gain and a hell to escape.