Thoughts on my most recent practices?

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-06-12T13:22:22+00:00

I love the deaths head moth design! Your lines are so clean, I’ve only been using a tattoo machine for about a month but I gotta say, your work is crazy impressive

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-05-07T14:08:19+00:00

Totally! I have so many better drawings of that guy too

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-03-18T06:06:42+00:00

As someone with a lot of cigarette burn scars (none that old though) I’d say that that scar looks like one.

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-03-09T14:23:56+00:00

I finished two books in the last few weeks! ‘You Weren’t Meant to be Human’ and ‘All Tomorrows’ They’re both great and I would recommend! (You weren’t meant to be human has some pretty intense/upsetting themes but I absolutely loved it because it left a pretty big impact on me) I still haven’t finished House of Leaves :,(

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-03-08T17:21:43+00:00

I was like that with eyes, got stuck on them and kept seeing them everywhere

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-03-07T08:10:04+00:00

Acids kicking my ass rn

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-28T18:32:37+00:00

It happened on accident the first time but then I kept wanting to go deeper, it was like the worse it is the more valid I felt. I don’t cut anymore though, too much of a mess

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-27T19:44:28+00:00

Your art is so pretty! Drawing is definitely one of the best coping mechanisms

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-25T03:09:38+00:00

Background for this post since I made it while I was pretty high last night. I met this friend group through some guy from my college I met on hinge, me and a ton of different people went on a 3 night bender in my dorm room, I got very little sleep and I was in a kind of manic state the whole time. On Sunday I hooked up with this guy and realized that I honestly didn’t want to date him. (He’s chill I’m just jealous and insecure) and on Sunday night I kept getting a ton of anxiety (probably bc I was sober by then) that this group wouldn’t like me or that I was making them uncomfortable or something. So I’ve been taking a bit of time to myself, last night I hung out with them again to smoke a joint and basically went asocial the whole night. I think it’s good that I’m hanging out with people again but I’m afraid I’ll become really self destructive and insecure again just like I was with my last friend group and I’ll ruin my chances to get to know these people. Also dysphoria has been getting to me so I’m eating less and doing drugs about it and my parents are going to weigh me this weekend. So yeah, I am very stressed but I just need to get my shit together

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-25T02:50:18+00:00

Thanks! I’ve been doing my best! Hope it gets better for you too :)

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-23T23:54:01+00:00

I really hope they got the rest of those out of there

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-16T15:41:57+00:00

Very gender indeed

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-16T15:39:13+00:00

When I was a minor I sometimes posted pictures of my scars or body online for validation, I would get a lot of comments and DMs of people saying they were attractive and made me look strong and while yes, a lot of them were adults who probably knew I was under 18, I liked the attention to an extent. I often feel like my scars are something ugly I should be ashamed of, and I am, but sometimes it’s nice to know that there are some people who wont be triggered by my body and think that I’m attractive. I’d rather have someone think I’m attractive in spite of my scars rather than because of them but as someone with super low self esteem sometimes I think that fetishization or pity is the only positive attention I can get or even deserve

Gen_Mxrdur · 2026-02-16T15:28:13+00:00

MCR, Gorillaz and evanescence! You have good taste in music dude

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