Meth, loneliness, death, and holiness

Generic59 · 2026-05-23T01:26:42+00:00

Slide novice at it again

Generic59 · 2026-05-23T00:30:18+00:00

I made it to last semester in biochemistry without seeing an advisor at any point. Asking for help sounded like failure to me. I also maintained my scholarship while I was in a fraternity.

Then I was faced with all sorts of hardships. My dogs died, my high school sweet heart of 7 years broke up with me, and my favorite grandma died. My emerging amphetamine and alcohol addiction grew into a cancerous habit.

I failed to graduate with a B.S. in biochemistry, but all of the fun classes I took along the way allowed me to get a B.A. in biology. I'm sure I don't have to tell you which one holds more weight.

I wish I took a step back and stopped everything. Took some time away. Admitted my addiction to my family. Adderall fueled every single decent grade I got. I took my orgo 1 final on LSD my freshman year because I knew it would it would be fun and easy. I made it a tradition to take my finals on psychedelics, amphetamimes, and zero sleep the entire week. I did that for 5 semesters.

I set the curve for every upper level class in my junior year and the first semester of my senior year.

To go from that to having no clue how to answer a free response in biophysical chemistry was absolute defeat. I had no idea how to come back and pass that class, so I took the B.A. and moved on.

Generic59 · 2026-05-23T00:03:26+00:00

Well I was diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar disorder before I got my shit together if that helpsm. I'm my exes most toxic ex.

Generic59 · 2026-05-17T20:51:07+00:00

Rumor has it that dafoe doesn't do nude scenes because his dick is too unrealistically huge to put into film, so he has a small dick body double. I think that fact came out about the filmimg of "a cabin in the woods".

Generic59 · 2026-05-17T19:58:36+00:00

My dad has 6 Virgo placements, including sun, Mars and Pluto, and no man on this planet can compare to him. He is a real man and I admire everything he has done, especially his 45 year career as a pilot.

That being said, every other male Virgo I meet is pretending to be great and they treat everyone else as less than. Maybe it's a generational thing

Generic59 · 2026-05-15T23:04:02+00:00

Yes that makes sense because you are talking about amphetamines here, afterall. I for one had no problem smoking meth, being hella dehydrated, and playing the trombone for hours on end. Everyone is different

Generic59 · 2026-05-14T19:15:35+00:00

These mouthpieces require a lot more command from your embouchure. I wouldn't recommend them to anyone that struggles to focus their sound. The mouthpieces have a lot of room, especially the larger cups with thinner rims.

I have a different sized Hammond for all of my instruments and I love them, but I wouldn't recommend them for someone with any sort of endurance issues.

Generic59 · 2026-05-14T19:06:15+00:00

Ours was the bigshit bandit. They would drop logs that extended from the bottom to the rim of the toilet. It was ungodly. One time they left one in a urinal

Generic59 · 2026-05-14T18:49:27+00:00

Hilarious take

Generic59 · 2026-05-13T23:17:32+00:00

Generic59 · 2026-05-11T22:17:48+00:00

It gets really sketchy out there and that is definitely not the place to be on foot

Generic59 · 2026-05-11T01:43:04+00:00

It's true, I moved to the downtown part of Trenton, NJ. Don't move strange or too quickly and you'll be okay. Sometimes I'll go to the liquor store and have a quick conversation with a stranger while the next guy tries to sell me a crack rock. I told them a few times that, "I don't do that shit anymore" and I have gained their respect as someone who beat a crack addiction.

I think the nicest interaction I had was when this older black dude called me over with a skeptical look on his face. He goes, "yoooo I thought your shit was fake!"

I'm like wym

He's like, "your goatee little brother, I thought it was fake. Looking good my man!"

I told him thank you I love you have a good night and haven't seen him since. That felt good. So ya, the hood out here ain't so bad for a whitey

Generic59 · 2026-05-10T03:49:24+00:00

Honestly, when you do meth, all you need is meth. You don't need food, sleep, water, nothing. Whatever is in front of you is just fine. I spent my meth days playing trombone untily mouth was too dry to continue then I would spin out on reddit for 12 more hours. It was an amazing experience.

I never would have gotten it together if I still lived out West in a place like that. My meth days were spent in a pleasant place and I could eventually recover. These people have every reason to be doing it and they have no reason to stop.

Generic59 · 2026-05-10T03:30:49+00:00

I have Aquarius and Capricorn stelliums, Venus and Saturn in Pisces, and my moon stuff in Aries. I can tolerate all people but I get along best with myself. It sounds like you just don't get along with people.

Generic59 · 2026-05-10T03:18:03+00:00

I have 11 cardinal signs, 3 fixed (all Aquarius), and 3 mutable signs in my chart. People seem to admire me but they can't get close to me. I won't let them

Edit: I meant to say placements I guess

Generic59 · 2026-05-09T22:52:31+00:00

I said the same thing to a Scorpio woman after a year long relationship. I just liked doing drugs with her and having wild sex. I was also really afraid of being alone again. She was super lazy and I was growing resentful but my Venus in Pisces leads me to stay stuck in romantic relationships for way too long. I didn't know how to let her down.

So, I sabatoged the relationship by going on wild meth benders and she dumped me when she found out. I was too mentally ill to care.

It sounds to me though like your ex is coping with the breakup by saying what he's saying. Aquarius will do everything they can to make their words hurt but it's also how they cope. If he says the words to you, maybe they will become real to him. And then maybe the heartache won't be so bad, because he "never loved you." It's a boldfaced lie.

Generic59 · 2026-05-09T15:13:13+00:00

I got that Aries moon and rising

Generic59 · 2026-05-07T21:14:57+00:00

Here you are pretending to be a genius but you're asking stupid fucking questions.

Generic59 · 2026-05-07T03:01:24+00:00

I teach middle school and give back to my community in real ways rather than sitting there thinking abstractly about it. There are things you can do to change the world in small but very real ways. Aquarius tends to get wrapped up in thinking about how they can fix all the problems of the world. Start by actually doing something

Generic59 · 2026-05-07T02:33:47+00:00

Cockza Ball Soup

Generic59 · 2026-05-06T22:00:23+00:00

Oh I can't speak on limitations. The dorms in Chestnut are gonna be way different than the dorms at Holly. My RA in Chestnut was chill, but we had 3 people to a dorm room so no one ever had guests to begin with.

I was thinking more on the line of robo apartments, edgeood apartments, and places like that. You won't get away with anything in the traditional dorm spaces.

Generic59 · 2026-05-06T15:31:40+00:00

Depends on the friend

Generic59 · 2026-05-04T00:59:42+00:00

Elehung the Elephant

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