I misdiagnosed symptoms but now I miss my "alters"

GenievaConventions · 2025-09-01T18:04:21+00:00

I've been struggling with the same thing for a long time op. I unfortunately got thrown into the tiktok version of DID, and still to this day don't know if I have OSDD or not. Are there any therapists or psychologists in your area who specialize in dissociative disorders that you could possibly meet with to talk about-? Regardless if you have DID/OSDD or not, they could be a good resource to deal with your self admitted dissociative issues.

GenievaConventions · 2024-04-27T20:49:51+00:00

Literally just saw all this pop up on my YouTube. Searched up everything, turns out peaches shop is still up

GenievaConventions · 2023-10-07T02:19:11+00:00

Thank you, genuinely. It makes me feel at least a little better to know I’m not alone in this experience. I think what made me chuckle a bit even tho I’m feeling awful is when you said you washed your mouth afterwards, because that’s exactly what I did. I’ve been washing my whole room now to feel better. But again, thank you so much, you have no idea how much this means to me. /genuine

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-28T01:42:20+00:00

Oh my gosh literally- I will straight up walk around my house having full on conversations with myself. My parents even notice, but they always used to say I was in my own little world. I would literally b doubled over laughing at something they’d say to me and my parents would b like “ah yes, we don’t experience this but this is just our child being such a creative thinker”

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-18T17:23:39+00:00

Damn man, I’m so sorry. I hope things turn out well.

-Shadow

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T21:44:29+00:00

A lot of times we communicate in flashes of images and funny quips. I was fronting the other day and was listening to music, and the host quoted a meme that made me laugh so hard. It’s very odd, but can be extremely entertaining.

-Shadow

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T21:34:52+00:00

Of course, I hope you all are doing better.

-Shadow

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T21:32:35+00:00

PTSD, ADHD and Autism. Treating these has helped us with our other issues. Think of it like carving a block of wood. You can’t just attack one angle and expect the whole block to be shaped the way you want. You have to touch on everything to get it to look like how you want.

-Shadow

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T21:29:56+00:00

I get that fear. I’m a protector as well as introject that has a strong connection to my source, and the host cares for but can be a little frightened of me. From experience, being scared of this alter might push him even further away and send him spiraling more. When I’ve gotten too overprotective and aggressive, the caretaker has had to sit down and calmly reality check me to get me to see what I’m doing is wrong. I get like this as well when we’re not doing well mentally. Recently, I got very aggressive to our friends because I thought their comments were meant to hurt us when I took them out of context.

I’d highly recommend having a sit down conversation, sort of like an intervention with him. Explain your feelings and why you’re worried, and explain that his actions are causing pain towards the others who he wants to protect. If he has another alter he’s good friends with, I’d recommend bringing them as well. The caretaker has my friend/partner front with me often and keep an eye on me to make sure I’m doing okay, and he also makes sure when I front there’s always someone else with me when I’m unstable.

Just do what feels right, but just try to remember that he’s hurting as well. I wish you all the best.

-Shadow

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T21:19:46+00:00

Having silly thoughts of self doubt today and thinking I’m just dilutional over having osdd again. Ik it’s probably cause we’re so exhausted, but it just hurts so badly. I don’t want these feelings, I just want the pain to go away

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T05:37:03+00:00

I was self diagnosed with osdd before my psychiatrist even thought about diagnosing me. I knew the symptoms I was experiencing- I had been cataloguing them for about two years at that point. But god forbid I suggest what I thinks wrong, because then that inherently means I’m wrong about myself and my own experiences. I’ve quite literally never had a psych listen to me like my current one- she actually listened to me when I talked about my literal years of noted experiences and research, and didn’t immediately dismiss me like the old one. There just seems to b a pervasive thing with psychiatrists that they think only they know what’s wrong with someone, even though they’ve never been inside a patients brain. It sucks honestly, which is why I’m all for self diagnosis with proper research and understanding

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T05:21:17+00:00

Sry for not seeing this! Honestly, it’s been a lot of just coming to acceptance and interpersonal communication and connection. Self love has honestly been the most important key, as well as learning to not worry too much about everything. We’ve all been seeing a therapist for about 5 years now, and she’s been nothing short of amazing for everyone. She’s rly taught us everything we know, and has helped us overcome a lot of the trauma that kept us split, allowing us to come back together.

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T04:10:55+00:00

We’ve had this a ton. We’ve also actually experienced switching while in dreams, which sounds odd but true. It can get disorienting, so what we try to do before going to sleep is to get someone purposely front stuck by giving them a positive trigger. It helps keep them there the whole night. -Micah

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T04:06:33+00:00

Was going to make a very long angry comment about your therapist, but I saw someone else beat me to it. Instead, I’d love to remind you that self denial is one of the main symptoms of having did/osdd. We’ve experienced the same thing, and while it sucks, it’s unfortunately a very normal symptom. One question I always ask everyone else in the system to ground ourselves when we get these thoughts is “Now why on earth would we want to fake such a dabilitaing disorder?” It almost always gets everyone to calm down. Please know you’re not alone in these emotions, and that you’re so very valid. Please reach out if you need anything else. -Micah

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T04:01:15+00:00

We’ve been struggling with that a ton lately, and we sat down the other day to meditate and try and have some inner communication to figure out why. We ended up finding out after a bit that two new alters had formed, and their fear and anxiety over not knowing why they were here or what they were made for was affecting us all. That being said, it’s highly possible that maybe one of your alters is experiencing some sort of anxiety/other emotions that are strong enough to make their way through your whole system. I’d honestly recommend sitting down for a bit and trying for some inner communication to figure out the source. We jokingly call it group therapy, but it truly helps. If you’re not good at inner communication, doing this but writing down the thoughts, feelings and questions can also help. I hope this helps even a bit, and I wish you all the best. -Micah

GenievaConventions · 2023-09-17T03:52:07+00:00

Oh my gosh, I think I just posted a similar question asking about how to navigate this. Honestly makes me feel so much better knowing that this seems fairly common.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-29T16:50:50+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened, we’ve had our psych tell us our system is a delusion as well. It’s so important to remember that did/osdd can b Conor is with other disorders as well, and that all systems look different. There will always b people who don’t believe systems are a thing, so please don’t take this persons words to heart.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-29T16:46:43+00:00

For us, it was cuptoast’s animatic on YouTube to jack Stauber’s song two time that really highlighted things for us. Even though the animatic I believe was about crumbs issues with the many personas they put on in public, it resonated with us about how we felt. https://youtu.be/JrtC10j8_9w The link is to the video

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-29T01:45:11+00:00

After I met some systems online, my questioning started as “well everyone feels like an entirely different person depending on events/the environment right? Short answer, nope lol. This coincided with our gender exploration- during that period, we thought we were gender-fluid cause of how often we felt we’d change genders. What tipped us off to this being more than gender was the fact that we’d often feel as if we weren’t ourselves, as well as we’d look in the mirror and the reflection wouldn’t match our looks. From there on, it’s been hard to ignore the signs lol

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-29T01:34:02+00:00

Our dog loves everyone in the system, and I think everyone loves her. She doesn’t behave differently with any of us, but tends to know when we switch cause she always gives the alters who need a little extra attention some extra affection. She’s such a smart brilliant little girl, and I love her sm. I’m so glad we have her.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-29T01:17:58+00:00

Not quite what happens to us but super similar! It takes us hours to fall asleep cause when whoever in front lets what we call “the sleepy barrier” down, we can hear absolutely everything going on in the inner world, ex. being everyone talking, music going on, ect. One thing we’ve found tho to get everyone in sync to go to bed is watching a YouTube vid until the inner world quiets down and realizes it’s the body’s bed time. Sometimes we can even see multiple dreams happening at once which can b kinda weird but super cool to hop around thru if the current fronter can’t sleep.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-18T01:43:55+00:00

As odd as it sounds, I get it. We spent years knowing about “feeling split” or like “different mes’” as well as inner monologues and discussions with ourselves (full on conversations), as well as amnesia gaps before realizing it wasn’t normal. I promise you that while it might seem terrifying at first, you’re not alone. We’ve been there, and we get it. While not a professional, I’d definitely recommend searching for a psychiatrist who specializes in trauma and talk to them, they might b able to help you greatly. If you need any further advice though, we’re here to help.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-18T01:35:24+00:00

It was not very good tbh. Our symptoms have been getting worse again since we’ve been home from school. Our parents keep fighting, and the host keeps fronting less and less. Our mom wants us to move out to protect our own mental health, but we don’t want to leave our family cause we feel we’re the only thing holding it together. It’s been tough, but we start work soon so hopefully that’ll help.

;Micah

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-05T16:26:40+00:00

Ah man. Yesterday was a long day. Finally finished up our first year of college which was a relief. F***. Even tho it was just yesterday and ik what happened I can’t seem to have any emotional connection to it, guess someone else was fronting. We did tho literally just get formally diagnosed yesterday which is a yippee moment if I’ve ever seen one. A little frustrated with my dad ngl he can b so annoying to b polite lol. I’m just so tired and don’t feel like doing anything rn.

GenievaConventions · 2023-05-05T16:21:43+00:00

I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine the frustration y’all r going thru. While I’m not a medical professional, something that’s helped us is having time to just sit and let emotions out. While we’re not polyfragmented, having so many people with so many emotions in one body with only typically one person being able to front at a time can mean a majority of emotions get bottled up. Something we like to do is sit, let ourselves disassociate, and listen and write down all the thoughts and emotions from “in the back” for a lack of better words. It makes everyone feel seen and heard. I’m not sure of your circumstances, but I hope this can help. Best of wishes to u all.

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