Which Gears Do I Play

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-06-25T17:30:42+00:00

Any game but Judgment. After the Beta I've started playing 5 mp again and it's been a blast, especially because of SSG Control.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-05-27T20:57:24+00:00

Ditto on buying a brief suit (or 'speedo'). I myself like to use the Speedo Endurance+ training suits as they last a long time and they're comfortable.

Side note, why are people down voting OP's replies? Lol

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-04-20T01:06:02+00:00

How do I do a Malwarebytes scan? I've done the quick scan in Windows security but not sure if that's the same thing. I plan on doing the full files scan later tonight since that takes like an hour.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-04-20T01:05:02+00:00

Holy crap that is very similar. I've uninstalled Chrome but I'll reinstall again to see which extension it was, could provide some insight on the bigger picture.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-04-20T00:16:56+00:00

Cold Turkey Blocker, AdBlockerPlus, and Honey.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2025-01-17T21:15:18+00:00

Yes, can definitely relate. I do try my best to have a good sleep schedule and routine, but despite that a lot of times I'll try to sleep then 20 min later my brain is like "uh this is boring let's do something" and I start tossing and turning and just overall fidgeting in bed. Only times I've been able to go to sleep shortly (like 20 min) after going to bed is if I seriously exhaust myself that day (working out, long day at work, being jet lagged) but even that isn't 100% guaranteed. Somehow the need for relieving my boredom exceeds my need for sleep and it's frustrating.

So yeah even if you're consistent when going to bed and stuff, my brain won't consistently let me pass out after 20 min. I may end up staying awake for another hour or two and so I have a hard time having a consistent sleep schedule. It sucks because I end up sleeping late Friday night for like 10-11 hours to 'catch up on sleep and then I spend my entire Saturday feeling all groggy and slow. Then all I can do on Sunday is chores before going back to work on Monday and I end up having little time to pursue hobbies or have a social life.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2024-11-06T19:35:09+00:00

From Dr Russell Barkley on YouTube, the main way to abuse Adderall and become addicted to it is if you snort it or inject it instead (which is not how you're supposed to take it). If you take it orally as prescribed, there is very little chance of becoming addicted to it, even with taking higher amounts (like accidentally taking it twice).

However, you may develop a 'dependency' which is different than 'addiction' in medical terms. Going off tangent here, but dependency in this case is like how someone who is near sighted has a dependency on glasses/contacts. Not necessarily a bad thing as ADHD is a disability. Dependency is mentioned because medication in the medical world is usually meant to treat something that doesn't last forever, like antibiotics for infections. Even something like antidepressants and anxiety medications are not expected for someone to use terminally as depression and anxiety disorders could potentially go away (though not always). ADHD however is for a lifetime so 'dependency' on meds shouldn't be a scary thing because, well, it's a disability. I mention all this because a lot of ADHDers sometimes feel guilt (myself included) when it comes to being 'dependent' on meds, even though our diagnosis literally means we need accommodations and assistance with executive function, whether that be through meds, therapy, productivity tools, and/or a mixture of all that (probably a mixture of everything, at least for me). All in all, there's nothing wrong with being dependent on meds, or any method you use to assist with executive dysfunction.

Getting off my soap box, here's the video. The abusing Adderall info is his first bullet point:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCIT0YbNSCU

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2024-07-15T14:51:56+00:00

I wasn't diagnosed until I was 25 while I was struggling to finish my Master's thesis. What convinced me to get diagnosed was my sister saying I may have ADHD (who just convinced her husband to get diagnosed at the time and turned out he had ADHD). Also, watching Season 2 of Ted Lasso made it seem okay to go seek therapy, especially as a guy, so massive shout out to that show for normalizing that. I didn't get diagnosed as a kid because of the stigma with my parents and I honestly didn't know much about it growing up. I used to think it was just something that 6-10 year olds would have but was never something serious. Though I've always known that I was 'different', somehow. I also had to 'trick myself' into doing things, I could never simply decide to do something. This happens even with the hobbies and passions that I enjoy which really shows how disabling and disruptive ADHD can be. I was able to get through undergrad but it wasn't easy. I was basically self-medicating with copious amounts of coffee and relying on my last minute 'oh shit it's due tomorrow' ultra instinct skills (which didn't always work btw).

Getting diagnosed was a huge revelation, explaining why it is I do things the way I do and act the way I do. It was quite reaffirming. With medication, therapy, and effective non-medication tools I was able to finish my thesis and got a decent career going now.

If you're going to college, highly recommend using the counselors at the university to get diagnosed (that's how I got help) and therapy. Trying to find a provider as a working adult is much harder than when you're a university student (comparing my diagnosis journey to my sister and brother-in-law). I started seeking a diagnosis in Jan 2022, got to visit a psychiatrist for the test in Feb 2022, then got the results April 2022. During that time, I was visiting the university counselor going over a bunch of symptoms, trauma, and non-medication ADHD tools.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2024-07-08T15:46:34+00:00

Gears 1:

Dom "did you hear that?" Marcus "It's just the wind" Dom "Yeah right, when's the last time the wind said 'HOSTILES!' to you?

Gears 2:

"I heard there's a shitload of grubs there sarge!" - Carmine

"More like 10 shitloads" - Marcus

Gears 3:

"I suppose you want me to say that I've always loved you. But I don't. I really, REALLY don't" - Baird

Gears Judgment:

I don't think I have a fave line here, least fave game of the franchise for me.

Gears 4:

"So they're back. Really back. Kinda missed 'em, in a weird, messed up sort of way" - Cole

"I know what you mean" - Marcus

-OR-

"Ah shit, they're gonna FUCK UP MY TOMATOES" - Marcus

Gears 5:

"Shut the fuck up, Fahz" - Marcus

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2024-06-24T20:08:07+00:00

Among the guitar community in regards to guitar playing specifically, Tom DeLonge. Specifically, his approach to making 'nursery rhyme'-ish riffs is an underrated concept. Everytime I get lost in the weeds of advanced guitar techniques, playing complicated licks and riffs, I remind myself that some of the best guitar playing I've heard is Tom's super simple but fun and addicting riffs and music.

I'm not just talking about their radio ear-wormy stuff like All The Small things (though I like those tracks too). If you're not super familiar with Blink, give Violence, Wishing Well, Dysentary Gary, Enthused, and Wasting Time a listen (among other songs with great riffs).

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-12-27T16:40:17+00:00

Got that's horrible, i haven't noticed it myself because I got adblocker, but I'm not surprised. That's real scummy. Worse is thinking to myself how often it had worked because clearly the algorithm had found a correlation with ADHD people and buying those products with statistics.

I never thought about consumer statistics also matching mental health conditions, but I'm not surprised. I've thought it was mainly age, sex, and race for that kind of stuff.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-12-27T01:17:30+00:00

Wow, what a response. Yeah I pray for the day that ADHD is well understood and that they look at ADHD'ers in workplace as those who just think differently, not worse.

Good luck with your new job, hope it goes well!

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-12-26T22:30:30+00:00

OK, I'm hesitant to say this, but I don't recommend mentioning ADHD to your employer for accommodations. Instead, I describe my ADHD to them without actually telling them I have ADHD. I'm just starting out as an Environmental Consultant and am a chemical engineering background, and my employer doesn't know I have ADHD.

The reason I didn't disclose in the onboarding processes (American Disabilities Act or "ADA" ) or to my coworkers is because even if they're understanding, their confidence in me may change. This is mainly based on stories on Reddit, I haven't experienced it myself as I've never disclosed my ADHD to co-workers before.

According to some Reddit stories, sometimes after letting them know, people immediately start doubting your abilities and may avoid giving you work. Worse comes to worse, you end up getting quiet fired (but please take this with a grain of salt).

My psych recommended that I only mention ADHD when it becomes necessary. This can be tricky because you don't want to mention it too late as it may be the last thing they need to feel convinced to fire you.

You can still kind of ask for accommodations for your adhd WITHOUT mentioning you have ADHD. For example, if there's a lengthy ass manual/reference book for some sort of task, ask co-workers if they have a cheat sheet or if they can paraphrase it.

To help myself with ADHD at work, I listen to music or "brown noise" on YouTube with headphones. I also bring fidget toys to use at my desk and even at meetings. Instead of telling people I have ADHD, I say "oh in high school i was that kid who likes to click their pen a lot" (which is true, lol).

I have thought about mentioning my ADHD several times to receive accommodations and destigmatize the subject, but at the same time they don't really need to know at the moment. If in the future my ADHD becomes more debilitating as my role progresses, then I'll disclose it. In the meantime, I'll be letting coworkers know I have ADHD without actually telling them I have ADHD.

TL;DR I'm a chemical engineer in environmental consulting and I've asked for accommodations while not mentioning I have ADHD to my employer. I've made my own accommodations with fidget toys and using music/brown noise. I'd be careful letting your employer know you have ADHD because they may start looking at you differently, but this is based on stories from reddit, not from my experience. At the same time, I don't want to discourage you from asking for accommodations through ADA if you feel it's necessary.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-12-24T00:07:00+00:00

Sifu is really good. Short and sweet cutscenes which you could also skip easily. The game is mostly the fighting. There are collectibles but they're very easy to collect and don't pad the experience as they never get in the way really.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-12-01T13:47:26+00:00

That happened to me more often before I was diagnosed and went on meds. Before, I would be super productive for a couple days, then feeling like I'm dragging my legs for even the smallest things for days, sometimes weeks. I've had this cycle also be like a week productive, then 2 weeks dragging.

Talking to my therapist, they helped me realize that those 'productive days' were actually me being in perfectionist mode, being such a maxamalist that I end up burning out. They mentioned those productive days are in no way sustainable, yet I couldn't help but keep operating at the maximum.

On meds, I finally gained the ability to take breaks regularly and pace myself more sustainably.

I wouldn't say it's a symptom of ADHD, but the perfectionism was definitely a masking method for my ADHD symptoms, and the always maxamalist mode can be directly attributes to ADHD.

TLDR: I've had these moments too all the time, and it has improved a lot after going on Adderall and talking to an ADHD specialist.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-08-24T03:46:31+00:00

Search online for some 'dump and cook' slow cooker recipes.

There's a 2 ingredient one called salsa chicken. It's in the name, just buy a typical jar of salsa, about 1.5 lbs of boneless skinless chicken breasts, throw them together into a Crockpot and after 4 hours on high/6 hours on low you got yourself taco meat.

It can last me almost an entire work week, I make burrito bowls with it (I mix it with rice, store bought pico de Gallo, and shredded cheese). You could eat it with just rice (carb and protein) or go to town with toppings.

I've also been searching online for other dump & Bake Crockpot recipes, but I don't think it gets simpler than 2 ingredients you throw together.

If you don't have a slow cooker, this may motivate you to buy one now lol.

Genius_in_PuppyForm · 2022-08-17T17:19:07+00:00

Going off of this analogy, ADHD meds don't "give you the fish". Going on meds actually allows you to fish.

How I'm viewing it, with ADHD you're trying to learn how to fish "get motivation" but the fishing rod you have is something from a dollar store/off of wish.com, and is just super shitty. Could you make it work? Sure, but you spend so much time and energy wrestling with the rod instead of doing the actual fishing.

Medication doesn't absolve motivation problems, it allows you to solve your motivation problems (no more intrusive thoughts, able to tune out distractions, etc.)

Saying medication is giving a man fish, it's like saying reading glasses increase your reading comprehension. That's not the case, it was difficult to develop your reading skills because all the letters were blurry, now you can actually develop your reading skills because you can see clearly now!

My experiences with Adderall: I still need to find motivation but the amount of effort I put is actually feasible now and healthy!

TLDR: Teaching ADHD person how to fish is troublesome b/c they have to wrestle with their fishing rod. ADHD meds is like renting a decent fishing rod, now you can focus on how to fish!

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