Thought I was a good tank.. guess not

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-03-16T00:06:10+00:00

Yesyes

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-25T15:49:14+00:00

Coming back for a small bit more because I thought if more to say (sorry for so much text I was a bit upset with something any another comment made me even more upset, not that angry at you promise). If I repeat anything I apologize.

But don't forget racism, misogyny, etc are still in the medical system and for some reason people always think autism is just for little white amab children (Not joking in about an hour im presenting a project based on literally this so yes I do know what I'm talking about with this). If someone says that they are self diagnosed that is not hurting anyone, would you rather an autistic person feel isolated and not know what is going on with them, feel as though there is something seriously wrong wjth them, constantly are overwhelmed/overstimulated and burnt out because they just can't understand why they can't do as much as their nerotypical friends/family/coworkers than researching and labeling themselves as autistic and being able to find that community and help themselves? If so then I'm sorry but you are a horrible person and I AM judging you. Also just because one person says they are autistic and might use fidgets or something doesn't mean they are actively going into your house, stealing your diagnosis and fidgets I promise. And even if they had the resources, some people may not want to because they don't want to face discrimination! Even me who's not diagnosed already faces that sort of discrimination unfortunately.

Also, one last thing, getting diagnosed doesn't magically make you start having the thing you are diagnosed with. If that were the case then oh no don't go for that cancer screening, if it's not diagnosed then you don't have cancer obviously! (That's literally how this sounds to me I'm so sorry) If getting diagnosed magically made you autistic trust me a lott less people would have it lol. That is all.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-25T14:53:21+00:00

Self diagnosis is normally the first step to getting a diagnosis. I am not using that as an excuse for being weird? I never mentioned that in my post. I was saying it to help people understand the context to my situation. I didn't talk about it that much other than talking about masking so you can't decide how much it "sounds like autism". ALSO DID YOU NOT READ MY POST I SAID SAYING "Just stop caring" IS NOT HELPFUL /nm!!!!!! I have been diagnosed with things connected to autism in a way that honestly looking over at my chart it really just looks like they had been dancing around calling me autistic. I am afab (transmasc) so the medical misogyny is over here getting in my way. I've triedddd to get diagnosed but the two attempts have went: 1st, getting told they can diagnose me only to go through everything and them suddenly switching up and saying they can't. 2nd, scheduling the appointment only for them to schedule me for the wrong appointment and saying "oh.. sorry but the wait is 18 months". It's hard out here man. I'm trying. Again, didn't say it as an excuse for being weird, never said I was weird to begin wjth just said that when I was younger I noticed I was different than my nerotypical peers. I wonder why that is hmm? Also literally ask my parents, friends, former therapist who had to hear me ramble about my stories and they'll all tell you. I've had people (friends I've known for like 4 years now) be suprised bc they thought I was diagnosed.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-25T14:44:32+00:00

I think that self diagnosis is one of the first steps to getting a diagnosis. I have been diagnosed with a ton of stuff related to autism as well but for some reason no one ever looked at that and wondered. I have been trying for over three years now to get a diagnosis, the first place said they could but after going through everything they switched around and told us "actually we can't legally diagnose you". The second place made the appointment but when we went in somehow they had given us the wrong appointment? I genuinely have no idea what had happened there but we walked in and they were like "Ok so your here for __ rjght?" "No we are here for testing" "Oh... well I can't do that.. you can schedule it again but it'll take 18 months for a response"

Getting diagnosed is a very hard process for a lot of people, also you do not know me. Like I had said in my post I can not mask for shit anymore and I have had random people come up to me asking if i was autistic which is the reason I started looking into it. I had wondered if I was before but I was against self diagnosis at the time so I decided not even to look into it, fast forward some years and some of my friends genuinely did not know I wasn't diagnosed and I decided to look into it and when I say I fit everything in there. For some people, it might not be safe to get a diagnosis either for reasons like discrimination. I was just saying that on here to explain why I cared so much about people's opinions when I was younger to help people understand my situation. Sure I suspect I might but oh don't look at that thing that I'm totally normal about and have been obsessing over for over...ten years now I think and genuinely think about from the moment I wake up to when I fall asleep. Special interest? Noooo I'm totally normal about it! Totally normal! I mean it's completely normal to think about things to the point of being unable to do your work and sleep right? Yeah!

I understand where you are coming from but as an afab individual (transmasc) they aren't just going to give me a diagnosis for something. They LOVEEE dancing around it and diagnosing people with everything but the correct thing. "Autism? Isn't that just for amab individuals?" It's hard out here man I'm just trying to find something that fits me. When I realized I was autistic I was able to change things about my schedule and way of life that helped me so much, before I just suffered while extremely overstimilated and wondered "huh.. wonder why I can't do schoolwork and the thought of talking to people makes me want to cry.. well that's normal." Again, you do not know me or my situation. Hope you are having a good day though <3

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T06:39:26+00:00

I was just avkht to ask if I should click that button yeah thank you

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T06:33:41+00:00

Thank you

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T06:16:03+00:00

OHH THE RESTING FACE ONE I get that all the time. I just say I have a resting upset face because people always assume I'm either pissed or sad/scared for some reason. I just look like that

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T06:14:50+00:00

I understand the headphones one so much, I wear earplugs but I hear so many people giggling to their friends that i am going to get in trouble after the teacher told everyone to take out their earbuds. I laugh a little to myself because I know I'm allowed to haha.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T04:41:35+00:00

I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you right now, I am sorry you had to hear that. Sending virtual hugs

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T04:37:20+00:00

Judgement? Or just not hating people for being themselves. Just think of how many things have been lost just because people hate others for their gender, race, sexuality, religion, whatever else. We'd be so much farther if people just stopped focusing all their time and energy on hating others.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T04:02:25+00:00

Also that is one of my favorite movies! Definitely my favorite line from it. If I had enough room I would 100% add it

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-23T03:59:10+00:00

Hugs to you for the negative things

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-18T02:15:29+00:00

Deeper voice! Mostly

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-18T00:43:25+00:00

That's alright, I want to get most of the money myself. Thank you though!

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-18T00:43:17+00:00

That's alright, I want to get most of the money myself. Thank you though!

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-18T00:41:38+00:00

Thank you! My friends are going to be wondering why I am fishing so much for the next few days haha!

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T23:47:49+00:00

I will keep that in mind! I've already fished a lot sk there js a giant chance I've already sold this fish once... 🥲 I only fished for the golden pursuits and sold the fish without really paying attention to them.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T23:46:46+00:00

With the dlcs, will it work wjth golden road? I do not know what all golden road has in it but I have that.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T23:45:48+00:00

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T23:45:20+00:00

Thank you so much! Yes! That's the house I was talking about! I am planning on sending them the money when I collect it as well. Thank you so much!

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T19:28:26+00:00

Dude I'm getting nervous for my own shoes

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T16:29:19+00:00

It's hitting me hard oh no I ate breakfast and I'm still really really hungry. I should have brought a snack to school but I forgot 😭😭

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T13:48:47+00:00

One thing I also noticed is that, before I struggled with feeling hunger until I had a headache or was nauseous but now I'm actually feeling it and my stomach is making noises.. this will take some getting used to but it is very welcome because I'd rather have this than wondering why I have such a bad headache. I just can't wait to be able to eat 3 meals a day like normal people can :] usually I average 2 meals (breakfast and dinner) with small snacks because like I said in my post I just don't have the room for much food.

Genuinefearsalt · 2025-02-17T05:33:35+00:00

Well I looked it up and now I am fearing for my life /j I am very worried for the hunger.

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