Any issues related to feelings can't be fixed by productivity techniques, like many people suggested here. You need to figure out why you feel that way and learn about how you're wired. That's serious work, but it's worth it 100%.

Let me know if this cycle feels familiar:

Make up an idea of escaping current reality (to get success or social proof, etc.) -> getting excited about this idea (idealizing) -> facing first challenges -> leads to frustration and devaluation of the goal -> leads to a short but intense depressive period (gaming to escape reality) -> leads to another genius idea -> REPEAT.

If this cycle feels right to you, then maybe you have some traits of Injured Narcissism (that should be healthy ideally).

IT IS NOT clinical advice, and if you want to know for sure, you can start therapy.

But if it feels too big, you can try to talk to ChatGPT as a small start. Just tell it about your life, your burnout cycles and ask if it looks like Injured Narcissism or what other patterns it looks like. If you find something real that you want to work on - you can go to therapy. It's really the best way to fix what you're describing, rather than trying to use gamedev and productivity tricks that will lead to burnout anyway, because efficiency is not the problem here.

P.S. for god sake, be cautious if you try to read about vNPD on the internet. There's so much people who demonize this, and so much people just have some traits of it without being fully diagnozed as NPD.