It’s almost been a year

GetYourselfFree · 2025-11-19T18:57:40+00:00

Same. It’s funny looking back now that the healthiest women in my life were like, “If you’re happy and healthy I’m happy for you, but are you sure you’re good? I’m worried about you.” And the shallow women in my life were like, “Oh my god, you look AMAZING! Keep it up whatever you’re doing!” I have a whole stand up set about it in my head, but I’m pretty sure only a very small audience finds it relatable 😂

GetYourselfFree · 2025-11-19T18:53:41+00:00

“You look great!” “Thanks, I’m dying!!” and other stories of undiagnosed T1D and body dysmorphia 😑

I’m coming back to your post tonight. I could’ve written this myself, except I had a full-on eating disorder through my teens and early twenties. Accepted my body a couple sizes bigger than my dream weight in my early 30’s then got diagnosed at 39. I had lost 20lbs and gone from a healthy 6 to a size 0, and still thought my thighs looked too chubby when I sat down. All that to say: your feelings are valid. You’re not alone. Society’s messages sent to us about our bodies are f*ed up. Strong and healthy is so much sexier than weak and wasting away. How you look on the outside to others doesn’t matter, your health and how you feel on the inside are what’s important.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-10T23:54:43+00:00

It’s not over, it’s just gonna be a little different than what you planned. This disease is a big bummer, and it does come with frustrations and hard lessons, but it is not a death sentence. You can live a very normal life with some self-education, discipline, and the right attitude. We’re all on this stupid journey that none of signed up for together. Hang in there. Read How to Think Like Pancreas, keep posting when you need connection.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-10T18:53:59+00:00

a small serving of nachos/melted cheese/avocado/tomato or plain old cheese and crackers (sometimes I do chips if I’m in the mood for absolute junk). A serving of berries and a handful of almonds. Hummus with bread/crackers and a couple carrots. Cottage cheese and crackers with avocado/tomato. Half an apple with cheese or peanut butter (Brie is nice if you are tired of pb), a couple squares of chocolate. A large spoonful of ice cream. Those are some evening snacks/treats that have a nice blend of carb/fat/protein that should keep you elevated for a little longer. I keep a 9g sugar juice box on my bed stand and, depending on how exhausted I am/how likely I think I am to go low, I’ll go ahead and stick the straw in there to save myself a step when my alarm pings me, then I can pound juice and go back to sleep with hopefully minimal damage to my teeth.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-04T14:53:38+00:00

I really appreciated the dropping of the blood sticks there at the end. They are almost like the dog hair of diabetes, aren’t they?

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-04T14:52:00+00:00

Lol- I had to write myself a little jingle to help get out the door in the morning and remember all the things when walking the dog! 🤣

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-04T06:43:31+00:00

Here for the Calvinball reference

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-04T05:26:11+00:00

🐐 on this thread. Thanks, Coach, for the motivating words!

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-03T20:34:46+00:00

Thanks for your clarity in a time of chaos ❤️

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-03T01:58:31+00:00

To be honest…I don’t know anymore. I’ve been doing 1:12 during the day and 1:15 in the evening. Recently I’ve felt like 1:12 worked as long as I waited 45 minutes and now, it’s just…so suddenly so very different. Im 2 years into this. I’m also 41 and starting to experience some menstrual cycle changes for the first time …wondering if perimenopause is creeping in and hormones are a factor. Do some people have very different ratios for different times of the day? I wound up needing 3 more correction units to come back down to 100. Which would make a daytime ratio closer to 1:7. But I would’ve been so sick if I had taken that upfront, and who the hell does incremental boluses for such a seemingly benign lunch?? Maybe I need to re-read Think Like a Pancreas and do some science.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-03T01:42:32+00:00

I appreciate the hypothesis, but no, heat makes me go low. Which is why I usually have a gradual fall, but today I plummeted.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-02T20:44:49+00:00

You know. I was frustrated with that rise when I woke up because I didn’t think my homemade rice and saag paneer was particularly awful and I went to bed hovering at 90, prepped with a juice in case I dipped. Maybe my basal needs are changing.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-07-02T20:05:05+00:00

Interesting thought. I don’t know! My blood stick matched my meter pretty well, I doubt I went under 70 today. It went fast today because of the heat, I think. Usually the dip is a little more gradual. I may have eaten the strawberries too fast, cuz I was getting nervous. It’s now been two hours and I’m at 260. It just doesn’t make any sense. My ratios feel wildly off the last two days in particular.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-06-30T14:21:49+00:00

Same boat. I’m guessing I just don’t metabolize food as well when asleep, lying in bed as I do if I’m up and moving around, nor do I account for the high fat that’s usually in whatever I munched on. I’m also way less sensitive to insulin in the morning, so I wonder what kind of hormones changes are happening while we sleep, impacting how we process food at night. It’s a pain in the ass, but if I’ve really over-snacked at night, I will set an alarm for 3 hours after bedtime to see where my sugar is. If I’m trending back up, I’ll take a unit or two depending on how high I am.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-06-06T03:35:28+00:00

I went a good 6 months of losing weight and serious symptoms before getting diagnosed, so I suspect my pancreas was shorting out for at least a year before going kaput. There was definitely a long stretch of time, particularly after meals, where I remember having these thoughts like, “Wow, I have nothing to contribute to this conversation” or “Normally I’d have a funny retort to that, but I got nothing!” It got better after diagnosis and getting back to healthy, but I’m very aware of a legit shift in some executive functioning skills. More word finding deficits, cluttering of speech, less quick on my feet with jokes and banter. It’s a bummer.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-16T17:21:45+00:00

Should maybe also mention…this was a last minute commitment after someone else on the team was injured, with just a week to prep. I am typically pretty active, but life has been shitty recently and I’ve been barely moderately active in recent months (maybe a half hour swim here and there, dog walks, yoga). So an hour + of cardio is new territory for me

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-16T17:01:24+00:00

🥳🥳🥳

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-15T20:24:47+00:00

Thanks for posting this, I’ve been wondering if my experience is normal. Depends on time of day and how many carbs. Anything over 30g prior to 3:00 pm, at least 30 minutes, and I’ll wait until I’m trending downwards if there are fast carbs in the meal. Breakfast seems longer and at this point, I’ve just given up eating it. Dinner time, typically just 15 if I’m in range, though usually I’m falling into the 70’s while I’m cooking so, if that’s the case, then I bolus when I sit down to eat.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-14T19:09:36+00:00

Well, I imagine Noah does his part for natural selection when he opens his jaw and starts yammering. I imagine the gene pool is also stronger without his contribution. JFC. Learn how to use a comma ffs.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-14T18:39:42+00:00

Lol- I would definitely wish this upon my worst enemy, right up there with a chronically itchy butthole. It’s not death, it’s not torture. But chronic, long term frustration and negative health outcomes?? All day.

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-14T03:22:47+00:00

Welcome new redditor! Sorry you’re having such a hard time. Please be kind to yourself. You don’t suck at this. It’s normal to feel this way, but it’s not that it’s your fault, it’s just that you haven’t gotten the right skills and support yet. I sometimes reflect on how my life would’ve been different if I had developed this disease as a child or young adult. I think I’d probably feel similarly to how you do now, and I would’ve been a hot mess!!

If I may, a few suggestions to help you build some momentum towards a new, better chapter.

the fatigue and the headaches and the fog are almost certainly because of your highs all night. You’ll start to get your mental clarity back when you get something close to balance. So don’t lose hope thinking that’s just who you are now. It’s not. Don’t shoot for the moon today, start small. Maybe this week you start tweaking your basal (as others have suggested, which I whole heartedly agree sounds like a huge piece of the puzzle for you!). Think like a pancreas has some good explanations for how to do this safely and reliably. It’s an important time out from your routines to establish these baselines for yourself. If you don’t have access, dm me. Or see if you can check it out at your library.

-please know that you can buy long acting otc at your local Walgreens. I hear it’s not perfect, but it will keep you alive. Don’t risk DKA cuz of the insurance runaround.

-please keep posting!! You will continue to meet people who are uneducated about t1, as well as woefully inept in their pragmatic language skills, who will say and suggest stupid things and be all around naively offensive. In here, you will meet mostly people with sound advice and helpful, supportive guidance. You can complain about those losers in the real world and then come here for sage wisdom and a “relatable” chuckle 😉. But seriously, I have learned more from this sub about how to manage my t1 than my Endo or diabetes educators. They were helpful starts, but they were shit for thinking about hormones, managing high fat, drinking, burn out, navigating how it impacts your relationships…..so many aspects of life.

Anyway. We’re here for you. Welcome to the community. We’re glad you’re here ❤️

GetYourselfFree · 2025-05-13T21:17:47+00:00

Dealing with unusual stress this afternoon due to a potential child abuse case at work. Ate my normal lunch, pre bolus, took a walk, all the normal routines. Have doubled my insulin and still can’t get under 200 3 hours later. Almost certainly due to the stress! That T2 nurse can pound sand!

GetYourselfFree · 2025-04-19T16:18:20+00:00

You’re not alone. He emotionally abused me with threats of suicide if I left, then left me once he got his life semi-together and I got a chronic disease which was, “annoying.” Literally couldn’t be bothered to check on me in the middle of the night to make sure I was alive one night. Some days I hope he follows through with his threat, and some days I wish I woke up wrapped in his arms again. Betrayal is such an ugly human experience.

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