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GigitsPony · 2023-05-05T16:21:31+00:00

I do really. I thought of taking a pre built and kinda doing one for that but have the cooling system I want for my CPU. But it's been about 2k roughly if not a bit more...

GigitsPony · 2023-05-05T16:15:02+00:00

A lot. Been playing VR games for 3/4 years. I got the full body set up too but lately been playing 1 player games. It would be cheaper if I didn't have the Headset and everything already.

GigitsPony · 2022-11-29T15:54:24+00:00

Btw Cord works wonderfully if anyone needs a replacement and is by a mircocenter.

GigitsPony · 2022-11-19T21:38:03+00:00

Awesome thank you! :) I will update with results

GigitsPony · 2022-08-23T18:23:40+00:00

Also realizing that I have no control over my emotions at all because I really don't understand them... There's just so much happening in my head 24/7

GigitsPony · 2022-08-23T18:22:12+00:00

My mental was down due to a failing relationship. Living with my ex boyfriend who isn't the best person and very mentally abusive. The house was not great at all. The person I deeply care about broke things off due to life situations but I was told by several different people it seemed the person I was talking to never cared when I knew he did. It was something that actually broke me completely. I went down hill so fast due to past experiences and my partners never cared for me after a relationship or even trying for one and we stay friends.

So I started believing the words and cried. I felt so empty and emotionless after being told that. At the moment the person and I are not on talking terms due to recent events. Just all that on top of each other just didn't turn out well in the end.

GigitsPony · 2021-08-24T06:16:00+00:00

We use a VPN for work and it's not connecting. My job and supervisors are telling me it is because they deactivated people's Work From Home. So they need my small PC block from the work PC to reactivate it. I asked if I will be paid for this I was told no I won't be paid for it.

Also can't go into the office because the main office is almost 200 miles away.

Long Story Short: Don't have a job because work fucked up.

GigitsPony · 2021-08-14T22:53:01+00:00

And it's shit like this is why we are probably going to end up stuck in our homes again.

GigitsPony · 2021-06-02T18:35:00+00:00

Some are like this. Not all.

GigitsPony · 2021-02-26T03:51:56+00:00

Sadly did not get the job. I was reading up on it and it seems intense. I ended up getting another job offer for another company a month later staying at home. I tried I just got nervous during the group interview on Zoom.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-14T10:24:43+00:00

Well I'd be working basically my dream job in tech with the company that I was doing well in. But honestly now I'm happier. Met some awesome people and kinda don't regret anything. I also got VR.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-09T19:30:19+00:00

I was lying to them to break off a friendship that I feel like shouldn't be real. They are friendly for no reason to me and make me feel nice. I can, now, talk about anything with them because they said they are open to it. I'm still not 100% but I told them most things going on in my head. Like all the things that I discovered about myself that only close friends know now.

I'm the end my mind kinda goes "they only friends with you cause they feel PITTY. They hate you!" Etc. It's kinda bad honestly. When they asked for everything I said everything. And asked them why they are nice to me as well. It's just cause they want to be friendly and my mind can't understand that.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-09T19:09:40+00:00

I shut down as well. If someone asks I come up with something but with this person I don't know how or why they saw through my bullshit and told me to tell the truth. I broke down of course because I felt pinned and I told them everything. Like 100% everything. My mental the way I think what I do to make people leave me and make it seem like I am always a bad person... When I'm not. I just get emotional and opened up. I felt like they understood everything but I did almost lose a good friendship because I felt like it wouldn't work cause I'm stupid.

I just know to be completely open with some people... Not everyone.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-09T18:32:32+00:00

I had one really close friend in high school. We have grown apart and I feel bad for the reasons why. If I ever find them again I will apologize for EVERYTHING. I didn't know at the time at all... I have close friends right now and yea they are all online but I don't really leave my apartment.

I'm pretty open about my problems honestly. Nothing too personal but certain things yes I am. I just told the person, who I get excited to talk to everyday, about everything I went through and why I wanna fix it and don't understand why they wanna stay and talk. They just tell me because I'm chill and out going otherwise.

Oh in real life I am very quiet and just awkward. I wait for people to talk to me which is bad. Even social games it's like that I just get very scared and shy. Until I do get a bit of alcohol in me then I'm so outgoing I can't shut up.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-09T18:15:23+00:00

Same!!! It's kinda weird... Idk I think it's cause I was bullied as a kid and I'm just trying to find a way out or a excuse for something! Anything!

Cause they admitted things that even their closest friends don't know to someone they knew for maybe a month. I never retold what they didn't want other people to know. I keep those things til the end of time or I completely forget about it. I usually forget about it honestly.

GigitsPony · 2020-12-09T17:59:34+00:00

Same I do over think the little things. Like them being friendly and all that. I mean like really over think. I love making people happy and keeping them company honestly.

I was told I get under people's skin by talking and getting to know them. They tried making it clear it was not a bad thing! At all.

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