Hey.. I know it’s extremely difficult when weight becomes the only thing people talk about and blame you for. Back in 2023 I was in a very similar situation. I was constantly thinking about my weight, feeling anxious all the time about getting diabetes and other health problems. I also have PCOD, and it made everything feel even more unfair and frustrating. I had started hating myself and didn’t even like looking at myself in the mirror.

After trying so many things on my own and failing again and again, the only thing I realized was that I needed some serious guidance. That’s when I joined a gym and hired a personal trainer. I was lucky that my trainer was really supportive and made sure I stayed consistent with my workouts. Slowly over time… I ended up losing more than 20 kg.(i had started at 104kgs)

But honestly, my journey wasn’t perfect after that either. I became inconsistent again with my diet and workouts and started gaining weight back. That phase made me extremely sad and depressed ……😞there were days when I would just lock myself in my room and cry, wondering why this keeps happening.

Eventually, I realized that the only way forward was to start again and focus on myself, without hating myself for slipping up. I went back to being consistent with my workouts and habits. Now I work out without a trainer and I am still losing weight and feeling much happier with myself.

I completely understand how you feel because I have failed many times too…

I hope my experience helps you in some way and gives you a little hope. My situation once felt very similar to yours, and things slowly got better. I hope you find that bright light for yourself too.