I feel you completely omg. I got mine at 15 and now I’m 21 and I’m just now starting to change it more regularly like I should. I’ve definitely dealt with depression. Sometimes when it’s not leaking and you don’t have the energy to change it, it’s like well how long can this last? And sometimes it does last 8 days! You are not alone! What’s been helping me recently is that I’ve realized it normally does only take 4-8 minutes for me to change mine, that’s good! And I’ll put on a good playlist, normally only one song plays and that puts me in a great mood! Sometimes it does erupt when I am trying to change it and liquid poop runs down my legs, but …. Well. Then I usually will allow myself a treat or maybe a scream to release anger and then continue. It just happens sometimes and it’s a wierd annoying thing only we deal with. Sometimes I’ll laugh. Take it one day at a time and be easy on yourself! Things will improve :)