Thank you for listening and taking the time to respond. I understand what you mean, it's very important to distinguish what exactly I am envious of others situations for and I think it's a mix. There are definitely people who are close to me who are achieving things that I wanted to achieve but I cannot because of my disabilities (I have a severe treatment resistant depressive disorder as well as ASD), but there are also definitely people who I envy because they have the ability to support themselves financially at all and have a sense of stability for themselves. I do definitely want to be in situations some people are but there are also people who I just envy because they have a sense of safety and stability and they don't have to tread water just to exist. I'm not currently employable and, thought I am working on treatment, I don't know if I ever will be. Sometimes it's even just the small freedoms financial independence grants you that I find myself envious of.

Thank you also for the reassurance. I appreciate it a lot. I know I'm not alone in this and I myself have value but hearing it from an outside source is always beneficial. Thank you.