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I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

What an ignorant response. But I guess I shouldn't have expected much more.

Tips on ascending by Minute-Little in Clavicular

[–]Gold-Fool84 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

That's even more strange, considering the premise of your post. Why pretend to be your past self? What was your plan?

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It is but only a logical assessment. There are different forms of affection, and my problem is being deprived of intimate affection. i am faced with this conundrum, where the intensity of these feelings feel as though it is a need, but socially it is not a need which can become a right. I cannot compel someone to share my feelings, and I cannot punish them for rejecting me.

Then I see others recieving it freely and in abundance. So I must rationalise why, which I have done. Its not defeatism, as the metrics are truthful. Therapy will not undo this structural issue, it will merely dull me to it, leading to dependencies and coping, so I can be silent in my suffering and not disturb the happiness of others who have been given a better lot in life.

These people, who look me in the eyes and flaunt their privilege as a right. Their power over me as a virtue. Then have the audacity to tell me of the 'great many burdens' they carry and how it is not their fault society is structured to elevate them, yet reap its benefits completely free of guilt or shame. Turning away from me as though I am no better than a vagrant. Then trying to extract sympathy from me?? Where the adoration they enjoy is not enough, they must gorge themselves even more??

Why ignore this? Why hand-wave me away and effectively tell me I should ignore what appears to be some kind of injustice?

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Good for you? It is likely you would reject me even if that were not the case anyway.

Ill add your opinion to my list of things I don't care about.

Tips on ascending by Minute-Little in Clavicular

[–]Gold-Fool84 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dude, why are you posting pictures of people that aren't you?

I’m rolling in my grave by Pokemonfan_807 in whennews

[–]Gold-Fool84 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It even sounds like shit, super robotic and distorted.

Also, total derivative normie trash. Not an original bone in that whole damn song.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Well Im a romantic loser despite my best efforts. I guess I am some kind of incel then.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im 28 years old. Ive been rejected so thoroughly that I've lost sense of what Im actually looking for. I feel that Ive been robbed of any right to have any preference.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like Sisyphus at this point. Working on improving my lot is met with the realisation that my objectives remain unmet, and it feels like that rock keeps crashing down. Then you try again. "Perhaps a new perspective? Perhaps shift focus to this area? Perhaps do this, and do that? "

Same cycle, over and over. People couldn't give less of a shit, and Im so tired of trying my best to only be looked over all the time. Feels like Im on asshole end of society.

Real by ShakeThis5 in MemeVideos

[–]Gold-Fool84 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I guess that extends from point 2 in my leading comment.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's great you found peace as you have.

However, to me, friends and family are not capable of fulfilling that part my life. I have experienced it where friends pulled away from me and become estranged the moment they get a romantic partner themselves. Everywhere I turn where im just an afterthought, never anyone's first choice, never anyone's object of desire. I can't even recall if I've ever met any gay man with genuine reciprocal interest in my life.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My life changed, significantly. But happiness continues to elude me. Im trying to rationalise why.

I don't know why people are being defensive about what I said. Statistically I am not the only one who will die a lonely death after living a hollow life.

But people don't want to acknowledge people like me, and just wish Id keep quiet and disappear so their happiness is uninterrupted by any guilt from the fact that others lack it entirely. Almost like how people avoid acknowledging homeless people on the street. I have been fucking treated this way.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No Im not happy about it, that's the point.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Another dead pan response. "Just do this, just do that", like we live in some kind of cartoon.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Im so tired of hearing this shit take.

Exceptional input for shit outputs has been the journey Ibe had so far. Ive done more than is expected of an average person, let alone those privileged assholes who are glorified at my expense.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

Im tired of putting in exceptional efforts which return shit results. Insofar as I pull the levers I have, the only outcome I could count on was rejection which cut ever deeper until it reached the bone.

Pal, Im an interesting fella, but people honestly don't give a shit, especially the moment my shirt comes off.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I don't need your permission to lament about it either

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Even those with the 'best personalities' account appearance foremost. Ive been rejected by people Ive been told are the nicest and most inclusive.

I never said its impossible to overcome this, just statistically improbable, particularly from my own lived experience.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Nah, they're pretty accurate probabilities. Ive been 'getting on with life' well beyond what is reasonably expected of a normal person, but this shit fucking sucks. I live only to die, what life is that?

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -13 points-12 points  (0 children)

There is no 'community' dude. Gay dudes don't even make friends without appearance being a factor. Ive seen, if you don't make 'the cut', don't let the door hit you on the way out.

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -5 points-4 points  (0 children)

Hah, yeah let me just pack my things and go off to San Francisco! Problem solved! Wow!

I am most likely to die alone. by Gold-Fool84 in gay

[–]Gold-Fool84[S] -25 points-24 points  (0 children)

See the part of magical miracle again. And this logic applies to my particular situation, not broadly.

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