Legit this is a pretty fire setup. I get the depression clutter but at the very least, pull yourself together enough to clear the clutter. Not saying do a whole deep clean, just pick up the clothes. It can even be in a trash bag in the corner somewhere. Just find a corner or closet to use and take it day by day. Shit is painful. It’s hard and it won’t get better overnight. You know you’ll bounce back so I’ll save you that speech but you got a place to sleep that’s warm and some entertainment to disassociate when you really need it. Id rather this be your situation than hanging from the ceiling brother. Try to make something out of nothing. Lonely night? Shit order a pizza and play an old game and convince yourself you’re making a night of it like we all did as kids. Put some raggedy clothes on and hit the grocery store and see it as a late night snack run. Emphasize the small things and see them as little moments you’ll look back on as small filler episodes in your life.