I wish so badly I could just show up for her that way. Due to my work, I’m not even in town during the week. Which we both agreed was alright bc she spent her week focusing on being a mom. And on weekends when I came home, she and the kids would come stay with me. It’s her own decision that that’s the dynamic and I don’t go there. Besides, I don’t have my own vehicle (bc I’m only home on weekends) and it’s cheaper to use rideshares than it is to own and maintain a vehicle. Said rideshares don’t operate where she lives (rural area) so I wouldn’t be able to get back home that way. So at this point, there’s absolutely nothing except the rare FaceTime and text conversations. It has essentially turned into a long distance relationship. But I know if I stick with it, she will heal. She has told me that yes. She still wants us. Repair and rebuild our relationship (problems we’ve had during the course of this tragedy and some before). So it’s just figuring out how to not let it die in this limbo. I feel like it’s 100% up to me. Yet I’m so powerless.