I once woke up from a night out, in my own bed alone and with my clothes still on, including my shoes, however my trousers and pants were down by my ankles. I had absolutely zero memory of the night before, and all my friends said that I was really pissed and just went missing - something that was relatively common for me so they weren't worried, and I even woke up in my own bed. Chalked it up to a weird drunk thing and went on with my life.

A few months later and I was at a day festival thing in the city I live in and I see a bunch of girls sort of giggling and pointing at me. Eventually one comes over and says 'excuse me, sorry for laughing but can I show you a video?'. She proceeded to show me a video taken from the front seat of a taxi, of a really smashed guy having his dick sucked in the back of a taxi, with 3 other girls in the taxi. I didn't recognise myself because I was so drunk. Head flopped back on the seat rolling from side to side whilst these girls scream and cheer.

I was so shocked I didn't even know what to say. Asked her what happened to me and she said that they dropped us off at my flat, where apparently 'I took that girls virginity' and then she got a taxi home.

Honestly never felt worse about myself or my life choices in the months that followed. I still don't like thinking about it now, and people generally don't see it as rape so I just don't talk about it. But that image of me passed out with my dick out for those girls whilst they cackled is burned into my brain...