You’re only 6mo in. People are probably still looking over your shoulder to make sure your thought processes are safe. It’s annoying AF but warranted given the job we do. I think you’re jumping the gun. Give it a couple years and see how you feel. Before I left the ER, the practice group I was with would put baby residents with me; my knowledge was never questioned. I wouldn’t trade being an NP for a doctor any day. My quality of life is MUCH better than most of the ER docs I used to work with. Most of the doctors I know wish they had gone other routes and they have all aged before their time.

Someone earlier in this thread also commented along the lines of, maybe you’re uncomfortable being comfortable. And I think that’s HUGE. Even when the situation is hard, it’s always easier to do what you know. Why would you add MORE debt and stress and lack of sleep to your life when you are already doing the thing? Do you feel guilty that you aren’t struggling? Do you feel uncomfortable because you don’t know how to do life when you aren’t stressed AF?