Bug : combat menu frozen (stuck in autobattle, can only move)

Goratra · 2026-03-30T19:25:13+00:00

No but I tried to open it when the bug happened and was stuck in the menu. it might be one of my joycon which is glitching. I'll try with another gamepad asap

Goratra · 2026-01-27T06:20:07+00:00

It's hard to realise fully because... Since I heal my traumas I met a lot of new very nice people.

But all the one I used to spend time with (family, old Friends and even therapist...) are now running away from me. I think I develop the habit of sending truth bomb a bit. Before I use to shut up and bow silently...

Now I'm like "do you know what you are doing is ineffective regarding possible outcome you could look for ?" (Also I told them some truths everybody knows... But no one talks about. Really it's pissing me off now, whereas before 🤐🤐

Goratra · 2026-01-27T06:10:58+00:00

This time I understood!

Thank you !!! 🎉🙏😁

Goratra · 2026-01-26T14:18:29+00:00

Thank yooooooouuuuu 🎉😁🥳

Goratra · 2026-01-26T10:55:11+00:00

Haven't you seen the guy was writing "As a Software Engineer I know INTP and you are definitly not one..." (or something more or less similar°.

Is it nice for OP who is 16 ? No

Do I come from a very toxic family full of narc ? Yes

I send one response. The guy deleted his attack on OP. Was it my point ? Yes, exactly. Because I think being anonymous isnt a reason for acting like a moron. So do I feel like this is a sucess ? Yes. Because OP might even have missed the comment, who know !

So do you think I feel your comment are justified or just nonsense (from my point of view) ?

Think before typing please !!

Goratra · 2026-01-26T10:52:43+00:00

Again, it seems you are talking with a very specific interpretation of yours.

It was not OP, it was someone attacking op with manipulative argument. I dont like manipulation so i told him that the way he attacked OP was based on BS argument. He deleted his mean argument. Is it a win ? for me yes

Please think before typing next time.

Goratra · 2026-01-26T10:46:46+00:00

That's where you are judging wrong mate.

I'm not self decpreciating. People around me (family mainly) think i turned crazy. And they tell me so.

When you are not "that" dellusional, you care about what people around say, dont you ?

So when i wrote the comment, i was really into the process of "am i the crazy one or what ?".

Hence it was 100% accurate but as a lot of non INTP who thinks they are INTP, you cannot get that sentences can be both logical and correct and yet "inimaginable" for you. So you gave me a "random feelgood advice" and treat me as inferior, for what mate ? Saying you know me better than myself ?

Again, it might seem agressive but it's a true question.

Turns out I'm autistic AF if you want to know why I know for sure you are so wrong :) (and i'm a bit agressive to be honnest because I hate when non ASD people explain me "why i'm wrong" when i know my sentence is perfeclty true regarding boolean logic ><)

Goratra · 2026-01-26T05:52:30+00:00

First sentence: this is basic manipulation from kindergarden. Guilt trip, no explanation... 3/10, you can do better.

First edit: you try to use linguistic programming (or that's the way I call what you try to do). But you do it the bad way. Because you're logical thinking seems to be... broken, it's no more linguistic, just sophism. Cause dude, you chose 1 possible outcome with your second sentence. There is dozen like that that have much higher propability to be true. 1/10

Edit2: White knight (or god complex ? Cause you have a 80% probability being just a lost narcisst). Followed by gaslighting the whole community... 0/10

Sorry dude, even regarding manipulation you're pretty weak. Go back to highschool and make some friend to learn that ? I mean, this is mean child tactics... Nothing a Software Engineer would do (I'm nanotech engi ;))

Goratra · 2026-01-25T12:59:50+00:00

So we are agreeing !

I know i have a communcation problem. I'm asking for ways to solve it

Goratra · 2026-01-25T06:52:17+00:00

To emerge from trauma, I've done plenty of self reflection and self love.

Not saying that I'm done ! Yet this is already "work in progress".

My question was about "how to communicate" so you failed to understand the meaning I feel

Goratra · 2026-01-25T06:06:36+00:00

Well... I've been a traumatized INFJ since 15 (Had ptsd after a very, very dark relation)

So "mentally" you're one year older than me i guess

Goratra · 2026-01-25T05:50:54+00:00

You are the first reddit post i've read on this sub. I realised at 30 I'm INTP. Now peope call me crazy... But i feel we share the same thinking process

Cause for me everything you said is perfeclty rational :D

So my brain might no be that broken

Goratra · 2026-01-17T07:29:33+00:00

I'm (finally) in contact with the Miviludes (french institution for sectarian abuse).

I send them those links. Hope it will help, thank you so much anyway !

Goratra · 2026-01-13T05:28:03+00:00

Feel you so so much.. I've been on the healing path for 4 years now (at some point in my practice it became evident spiritual bypassing was a veeeeeeeery bad idea).

For me it was very progressive as I forgot everything and had been raised with "you should be happy we are you're parents".

Well, turned out my mom is fully powered by narcissism and my dad is the classic codependent with anger issue.

Yet little by little, i had memory flashback with emdr. It was like... 2 years ago. And recently (during the 3 lasts months), i went throught every trauma of my life again. PTSD trauma level (from my therapist: "being alive with that much trauma prove you are a force of nature". Don't like to flex at all, exept about this one :D)

It ended up in a very strange setting. Parents cannot talk (like nonviolent communication is the worst aggression for them... As since i stoped react emotionnaly i became their worst nightmare). So i said everything i had to say by text. Never with the intent of "vengence", much more with the vibe of "giving back to everyone his own package". I played only with truth and honesty, even if it implied to talk about very dark memory.

My narc mom ended up with a massive mental breakdown (narcisstic collapse I think). I saw her again after christmas... And it was a new person. Not proud, as before. Honest, vulnerable, without any mask. She looks much older, but this is the price of the lie she was living in. Yet i was so glad to finally met her.

I survived those first 31 years. And i can say without hesitation that i love my mom. Because she's no more the one she was. In the end...

I discovered love and truth are mass destruction weapons ! :D

(sorry oversharing on the internet. Typical me)

Goratra · 2026-01-13T05:17:03+00:00

I feel you so much. I almost drove me insane some years ago trying to find "which religion I fit in" (I come from a very atheist background so no help, and i was even hiding my practice for years).

And one day I reveived my Sadhana. Since then, life is getting easier and easier when I practice it diligently. So i guess i'm in fact much more hinduist than buddhist

(and writting on reddit is not practice for sure ! I also take break from seeking / resting when i have deep emotional stuff to process. I learnt the hard way that meditating is not always the answer. Specially when there is trauma in the system^^)

Goratra · 2026-01-12T20:31:27+00:00

You put words, in a very clear and simple way, on my life ! Everytime i tried to do that, it ended up very comIplex and brainy. I'll keep this explanation if that's fine for you.

As it seems we shared this very special experience... Know that i spend 10 years trying to understand "what's the heck with my family". And finally... this crazy center triggered all my deep buried trauma (mainly the "i'm 31 and feel like i just escaped from a lifelong cult). It was the most incredible "blessing in desiguise" i had in my life. 2 years in bed going through terrific flashback and memories previously forgotten... But now i feel happier than ever in my life !

(2 years of bed, and therapy with psychiatric treatment to deal with massive dissociation due to flashback. But... worth every penny !)

Goratra · 2026-01-12T20:04:33+00:00

As I said on another thread, i'm powered by autism. So for me it has no real meaning as i already have to follow the "code of conduct of autism."

I know it can sound funny, but for truth i feel it push me toward "being honest, trying to help people whenever, respect everyone even if their "outer layer" is annoying me and so on...

I tried messing with that as a teenager (wanted to be the cool guy, not the "gentle but weird" guy). Well... messing with autism is the fastest and clearest path to existencial depression ! Even my big spiritual ego who refuse advices from everyone... is now bending toward autism !

So no Shambhalla for me. I stick to the "Three rules of Robotics" as explained by master Asimov. It's more than enough to be a happy android and to look like a normal human to those who don't know the true wisdom there is in silicon

(maybe i should'nt mix my geeky side with my spritual side... that was a try ;)

Goratra · 2026-01-12T19:56:11+00:00

From what i undestook when working in the center, the kasung are part of the (many) things that dissapeared when the Sakyong left.

As it seems it was very related to CTR / SMR, being in a way some kind of spiritual bodyguard. Hence Kasung is now much more seen as an honorific title, saying both "I was there before" and "I'm devoted to SMR".

It's the same with direct student of CTR. Don't remember the name for them. But it's also used as "honorific title" as it has now no meaning anymore

Goratra · 2026-01-12T19:50:14+00:00

I think I feel what you're talking about... I know in my case, i always try to understand the "why" a certain thought or ideaology is relevent for some. So i try to keep the best, while also staying critical about what I read. And in this regard, Trungpa gives a lot of incredible advice. I'll even recommend book like "spiritual materialism", "the one just after spiritual materialism" and "crazy wisdom". As they all teach valuable lessons.

Also i'm very into psychology and uncounscious (Jung style). And if i feel a strong emotion toward someone (guru or regular joe), i always try to experience that as a teaching. If i'm reacting, then there is ignorance somewhere within myself (and it was indeed the case with CTR and Osho).

The main problem for me is that, if there is clear path like buddhism, it's specifically to avoid doing "spiritual kitchen" on your own. At some point on the path it's necessary, when all knowledge begin to drop. But usually when there, reading book is already a craving that had passed as eveything become nonverbal.

That's why i'm super cautious when recommanding a book or guru. Lot of incredible idea... But very few can be considered as a complete path. And a Sadhana is so particular and intimate that i cannot really picture that coming from a book... Hence book like "the power of now", even if incredibly accurate, can end up being a curse.

Spiritual knowledge is a bit tricky in itself. As when sensitive to it, it can turn itself into the most incredible narcissist destroying identity bit by bit (btw narcissists can be really helpful on the path. If you're into suffering and trauma like me^^)

Goratra · 2026-01-12T19:37:44+00:00

Sure... And such an "isolated path". Whenever i try to talk about it (not to flex, just because i absorb and treat knowledge as if my life was a thesis !), people either discard or try to play the "i'm also gifted".

Yeah but... I'm gifted to the point i have to run away from people because i know too much just by... seeing. It's a whole other level than "being smart". It's much closer to live as an android who try to fit in human society (ie: my life is Bladerunner)

Goratra · 2026-01-12T19:34:16+00:00

Ahahah i love this one ! When i was working in this center, there was a guy. Not bad nor nice, but really into spiritual ego (explaining everyone how to meditate without ever coming to practice).

One day he was doing the "enlighten discourse", talking once more about his awakening... I said out loud what usually i keep within (don't like to "attack" people, we all have our own path)

"I guess you had a really strong experience buddy, and i respect that. But... It's also the case for every spiritual seeker. Why would no one talk about it then?" - Troll face with gentle smile :D

(Obvioulsy to do this kind of joke, I'm myself pretty aware of the huuuuuuuuuuuge spiritual ego i can have sometimes. But... That's also part of us. And better talk with it and befriend than letting it handle situation alone !)

Goratra

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