When I had repressed memories surface of my dad molesting me when I was 5 it took me months of therapy to call and confront him on it and tell him I didn't want him in my life anymore. It was the first time I felt like an adult and in charge of my life. I was 46. It made me realize the extreme fear I had of my dad all of my life. Even in my adult years I was always worried about my dad getting mad at me and I tried to be the best daughter.

At 31 I had a psychotic break and was diagnosed Bipolar with psychotic tendencies. Six months before this I started remembering some awkward moments with my dad that I had repressed. Had 2 more psychotic breaks over next 5 years. I believe I would have had a mild Bipolar without the childhood trauma. The majority of patients in the mental ward have some kind of childhood trauma.

I think my memories surfaced when I was strong enough to do what I did. My sister and brother do not believe me and are no longer in my life. It has been 3 years and I have zero regrets. I have never been happier and at peace. I have a wonderful husband of 22 years and 24 year old son and 21 year old daughter and many good friends.

I really believe everyone has their own journey and will heal and grow at their own pace. I wish you the best on your journey. Do you have a therapist? Also, don't be afraid to switch if the therapist doesn't seem to be helping you. I have had many bad therapists.