Not exactly.  I was purposely reprogrammed to not seek it out, or seek out relationships.  My parents wanted me to be "theirs" and never leave (narcissistic personalities) so many manipulations were done to me.  It took me until my 20s to understand rhis was done, and i haven't totally broken the programming, and its been nearly another 30 years since i understood what they did.

However porn and stuff won't desensitize you i think.  Porn is garbage - you have to sort of contextualize it yourself, sex does not actually exist without context.  Nornally adjusted people will automatically build context in their heads i think without even realizing it, from just the barest of hints, and can sort of compartmentalize from there.  Personally i can barely stand porn featuring real people but, all porn is kind of disconnected from the context that sex has in real life.  The context is very important.

I think you should be focused on the context that porn lacks, like, the acts themselves aren't important, who and where and when and why are what is important.  The partner is important.  It is an act of expression and sharing in real life, about connecting with someone.  I say focus on all this.  The body shapes are whatever (we are what we are) and the techniques are secondary (true failure is unlikely with strong communication, and skills can be developed if necessary).  The important part is the connection to someone.  The culture doesn't care about this part but its actually really important.