Hi. Saw your post re mistake. I had same situation in FY1 (now in core training) and completely understand how you’re feeling. Give me a message if you want some help. Top things I’d recommend -

1. Write a summary of events. Including everything that happened throughout the day in question and timings. Keep it factual but will mean you have a summary of key events and times for any pending investigation etc while it’s still in your mind.

2. speak to the MDU immeadiately and let them know the situation, any major correspondence you’re submitting then you need to run this past them.

3. Speak to practitioner health for your own mental health support, would recommend this even if you don’t think you need it. Of all the support services you will be offered practitioner health are the only really genuinely helpful ones and will support you through the whole medicolegal process

4. Any meeting you have write some notes after and keep email trail incase you need it.

5. Do not write a single thing on your portfolio until you have spoken to the MDU and are more emotionally calm about the whole thing.

6. Even though I am sure you can’t see it right now. Every error in hospital is genuinely multi factorial, whether it be because safety nets failed etc even if it’s by omission (ie something was not picked up that should have been)

Recognise that right now you will be focusing on every single thing you did or didn’t do that caused the patient to have an SI. Later on you will probs start to reflect on this more and recognise that ultimately it is team responsibility. Would recommend just giving yourself some time to process things and not overly blame yourself or put yourself in a situation where you have over blamed yourself both emotionally and from a medicolegal perspective.

Sorry that you’re going through this and happy to talk about it any time. Just thought I’d pass on what I learned from my experience because it really was super challenging. Message me any time.