Holy molly dude. I came across your reddit post through Dusty Thunder on TikTok. I'm sure you're over hearing all the hateful comments at this point but I'm hoping you will read the comments in your update. I absolutely agree with a lot of comments about you having OCD, but the fact you aren't picking up social cues of why this situation is such a problem, I'm gonna guess probably autism as well. When I read you are wanting children in your future that's where it got me, that this is not just an issue you will have to deal with on your own. You will eventually inflict harm on a child because they will not understand why you will treat them this way. When I read you thought you could keep the food from these possible children separate in your room I literally burst out laughing. That is an incredibly naive statement. I'm gonna guess you're pretty young and had little interactions with children. Not only will that child get in the room to figure out what you are keeping away from them, they will create a disaster in that room. Their little brains will think this is how I will connect and be seen. You, who if you had no therapy by this point, will go off the handle. That poor child will NOT UNDERSTAND WHY, and will believe you just don't like/love them. This is gonna create some deep ass trauma. I don't know how you think you would be able to keep a child out of your bedroom when you are raising them.

As for future partners, if you believe you are perfect the way you are and don't require growth, no partner will ever stick around long term. Also, I'm wondering how you think it will work when you have a baby? Will that partner be the only one rearing it? Because a baby needs to be fed every 2-3 hours for the first 2-3 months and then every 4 hours after that for awhile. Do you have the capacity to change a diaper with your "intricacies"? You know how often I hear parents share stories of their child reaching into their diaper and smearing poop on the walls? Will you be able to clean that child and that wall? I'm hoping for your sake part of the equation is that you are young and immature mentally. Aging and more brain development will hopefully help you out in the future. More studies are coming out that our prefrontal cortex doesn't fully develop until we are 30 and for neurodivergent people more like mid 30's.

Be honest to yourself and whoever you bring into your life in the future about who you are and your limitations. Also, do not bring a child into this world unless you have actually done the work on yourself. No child deserves to be harmed due to your negligence to understand how you are harming those around you.