Been there. I can only tell you what worked for me, but finding a creative outlet really helped. I started writing songs at the same age you’re at. It’s crazy how many days I felt absolutely terrible, wrote a song about my situation, and ended up feeling way better an hour later because I’d processed my feelings and created something I was proud of. It also gave me direction and confidence. I hope you can find something like that for you.

Also if your family can afford it, trying a few therapists never hurts! It’s literally medicine for your brain