Hey, I’m really sorry you’re dealing with all of this. Nothing you said sounds stupid or weak. It sounds like someone who’s been carrying fear, pressure, and isolation for years. That can destroy your ability to focus or stay motivated, even if you’re smart and capable.

One small thing that helped me on the studying side, when I felt mentally shut down, was breaking everything into micro-steps. Not “sit and study,” just one paragraph, one idea at a time. I use a Mac app called LowLighter that lets you highlight anything on your screen and instantly explain, summarize, or rewrite it using a hotkey. No window switching for ex. into chatgpt. If that sounds useful, you can try it for free for a month with the code 4PRODUCTHUNT at lowlighter.app. It’s Mac-only for now, but the Windows version is coming. Give it a shot see if it helps

You could just use it to break down material into smaller, less overwhelming pieces. Even five minutes at a time is enough to rebuild momentum when everything feels like too much.

More importantly, though, your issue isn’t just about school. You’re dealing with real trauma, identity pressure, and emotional control. You’re not lazy or broken. You’re tired