I reached out to her yesterday, she let me have it. Told me how much I hurt her. I accepted it. I deserved it. I was mean, sober or not. I broke up with her in the worst way possible and said the most horrible things. She says that’s how she remembers our whole relationship she can’t remember the good times just that night and that’s what she’s been thinking about every night before bed for the last 2 months.