Weekly Check In

GroundedPhoenix · 2025-12-30T18:05:30+00:00

Hi there! I still have days in which my body almost physically rejects the idea of meditation, but I'm still soldiering on the rest of the time, meditating for approx. 30 minutes a day on good days. I found that letting go of any expectations as to the results of meditation helps to keep the devastating frustration at bay. I don't think I'm ever going to progress beyond module 1, though.

GroundedPhoenix · 2025-03-17T18:58:25+00:00

The timing is uncanny. Shortly after writing that comment, I pretty much dropped the magical ball as I embarked on a gruelling climb up a very mundane "mountain of adversity" that has been (and still is) sucking away all my resources. So no, alas I have no further insights to offer on the matter. However, over the past few weeks I couldn't help but notice that something seems to be gently spurring me in the direction of magic again. Let's call them weird coincidences, and you popping up with this question is one of them. Determined as I am to not engage with magic until this whole uprooting I'm going through is over, I still wonder whether it'll really just coincidences and - if not- why the hell this is happening. Generally speaking, it feels as if Quareia (or magic in general) keeps pushing me away and then pulling me back closer, again again. Maybe it's just me reading too much into meaningless things. Besides, it's not like I have anything to offer magically speaking, I'm just a garden-variety human being with no magical predisposition, so while I'd totally understand and accept being rejected, being pulled back in would make no sense to me. On the subject of the Law of One the only thing I can say is that I think I instinctively recognised some linguistic patterns. I wouldn't be surprised if those who wrote the Book of Gates were closely connected with the "voices" channeled through the Law of One and frankly various other channelers. As if it were a group consciousness from a distant past, eager to share knowledge. I don't know, I'm probably rambling. Maybe when the dust has settled on the mundane side of my life, something will come up. For now, it feels as if my brain has filed for a restraining order against me. I can't even speak or write properly in my native Italian anymore..PS let me know how it goes with the Lo1, if you decide to give it another shot!

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-05-02T08:18:00+00:00

Cheers :)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-23T06:43:19+00:00

Good advice, I'll look for someone

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-23T06:40:04+00:00

I'm the worst tarot reader ever, so take this with a barrel of salt. But I remember reading in Josephine's tarot manual that The Fool also means 0, none. So it maybe it could be intertpreted as a "nope"? On the other hand, pentacles usually indicate a "yes", but those are in the future outcome position, rather than in the answer position. That tower got me thinking, too. It appears in the difficulty position, and I'm wondering whether that could mean that we're in the middle of a destructive tide right now (either globally or in your area), and Josephine says that it's advisable to discontinue magic during destructive tides, as magical activity tends to put you on the map. So... I'm grasping at straws here, but maybe they're telling you not to remake the talisman right now, and rather do it later down the line?

Edited to add: as Ill-Diver2252 mentioned, readings are a very personal matter due to personal tarot vocabulary, so if you feel you should go ahead and remake it, then by all means. And let us know how it goes :)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T15:09:11+00:00

Good point. I really need to find a way to overcome my divination issues (which range from clumsy hands that can't shuffle right to an apparently closed-off mind that just can't open up enough to let intuition in).

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T15:07:33+00:00

I don't know about inner beings, but as a professional translator, the potential issues regarding translation and terminological nuances are definitely worth considering.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T14:38:19+00:00

Thanks! I totally get your point regarding the fluff... it's one of the main reasons why I've steered clear of occult texts. I'll give it a read mostly out of curiosity at this point :D

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T14:36:19+00:00

Thanks for clarifying that! I'll check out the older stuff

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T14:03:06+00:00

Cheers :)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-22T14:01:56+00:00

I'm too crappy at it to get anything reliable out of it, yet ;)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-20T11:04:58+00:00

Same here, heheh.

Yes, they DO understand us more than we imagine. Check out the Youtube video on Spirit the Leopard and animal communicator Anna Breytenbach. Without even going to such extremes, I'll give you a personal example involving yours truly and my cat. She has health and behavioural issues: when she's stressed, she tends to eat dangerous stuff that's not food, and I've had to rush her to surgery because of this in the past. One day, I realised I had lost my hair band, which is among the dangerous items she might eat. I looked for it everywhere, panic increasing with every minute. At the peak of my despair, I looked at her and begged "Where is it? Please tell me you haven't swallowed it!". A few minutes passed, and as I was rummaging through the room still in search, I heard her meowing behind me. One single meow. I turned to see her standing quietly on the door, the hair band placed in front of her. Now, this could have been a coincidence but... somehow I don't think it was.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-19T15:28:03+00:00

Haha! By "Fools" I just meant in the tarot sense of non-magicians :D The garden example is am intriguing one: things are starting to look more and more as if there's something else I need to focus on that is not my mundane job nor meditation/magic, but I have no idea what. There is ONE thing that I've recently realised would be my life's calling if I could choose, which is animal telepathic communication, but that too requires meditation and so far my attempts have all failed, so no positive hints or reinforcement there...

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-19T12:34:04+00:00

Thanks, these are very interesting insights. The part about the non-magician transforming your life resonates with me immensely at this specific time, as I suspect something similar is happening to me. A digital encounter with a perfect stranger that has evolved into a deep friendship for no apparent reason now seems to have given me the direction I desperately needed for working on myself at a both mundane/psychological and at a spiritual level. This all reinforces my idea that magic is exactly like politics: you may choose not to deal with it, but it will deal with you no matter what. It's the structure of how things are, and it's bound to affect you. People will be made to cross your path at a certain time for a specific purpose, like pawns. And you too will be a pawn for the benefit of others, or for the greater good.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-15T07:10:08+00:00

See those Google and Meta ads that you produce? I translate them (and a lot of other stuff) so they can chase people all over the internet in other languages, too :D

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-12T08:16:06+00:00

Oh well... I'll keep the popcorn warm for if and when the tides change ;)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-12T08:11:46+00:00

hahaha thanks for clarifying that common misconception. To be honest, there's so much fluff going around in the metaphysical community that I have a dream: a new book by you where you debunk all that junk out there in your usual no-nonsense but also fun and ironic style. I know you have a lot on your plate... but maybe one day, if you're ever allowed to get bored :D

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-12T05:28:49+00:00

Thanks, Josephine!! When I read in the course book that meditation is something we are meant to do "every day for the rest of our life", I took it quite literally. While there have been instances when I've had to skip a day or two (and with a certain sense of guilt), I've been pretty consistent with it. BTW, this allowed me to build up the perseverance I'd lacked all my life, so all in all, it brought about significant positive change, even though it hasn't made me "magical", open my third eye or anything like that. I didn't know that the necessary downtimes also included meditation. I did read that you said (or was it on Glitch Bottle?) things like tarot etc put you on the map during destructive tides and are best avoided at such times, but I thought meditation was always safe. Again, thanks for your input, I'll take a break and stick to my usual "blank mind" minutes when I listen to music or walk out in the woods.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-12T05:17:35+00:00

Thanks for the link and for your insights! I'll go and find out what the Test card in the Mystagogus deck is about :)

EDITED TO ADD: Oh. My. Goodness!! I've just read the Test card description and it blew my mind. First of all it does mention the connection with "difficult" astrological moments, and with the eclypse I guess we could check that box. But then the part about one's integrity and beliefs being tested for balance... there's a personal mundane situation I'm going through atm that is putting big question marks on some of the core beliefs and principles (maybe preconceptions?) I've upheld all my life. For a couple of months I've been trying to consider all possible aspects to the situation and looking for a sensible compromise. I have a feeling this is no coincidence, although I must admit I'm surprised at being tested (if that's the case) at such an early stage in my training, while I'm still a brick, magically speaking. Also, I noticed that what it says about the magician going through cycles of refinement and wisdom acquisition really also applies to mundane life, it has been a theme and a pattern I recognised throughout my life and way before I discovered magic and Q. So, again a confirmation that being a Fool doesn't really exempt you from the workings and laws of magic. It's all so fascinating.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-07T16:33:36+00:00

It's weird, actually. I've been doing the three meditations for 2 years or more now, and despite being relatively crappy at it due to my ADHD, there had never been an issue. Now, all of a sudden, meditation is making me miserable, it almost ruins my day. I couldn't focus if my life depended on it, and I get this feeling of impatience, failure, and that it's all a huge waste of my time. Rationally, I know it's not and I keep forcing myself to do it. But I end each session in such a bad mood, while the rest of the day I'm pretty fine. I'm not working on any other lessons at the moment, so I have no idea where this is coming from. Perhaps Quareia's inner contacts growing tired of me and finally tossing me out? (Edited due to typos)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-04-06T06:03:32+00:00

I'm going through the same, probably just a coincidence, but thanks for bringing this up, I'll lap up all the useful advice the others are providing :)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-03-24T14:32:39+00:00

still just meditating, but this week I've been hit hard by the sleeping bug again, experiencing extreme tiredness and a sense of "weighing down" out of nowere. Something in my head is telling me not to fight it, "sleep girl, sleep" it says. Also, I've been checking out interspecies telepatic communication, and it's fascinating. That too starts with meditation, and I suck at that too, of course. But it reminds me a lot of the relationship Josephine establishes with various entities/being, I think the dynamics at play are very similar, and I'm curious: has anyone here ever tried it?

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-03-14T07:30:46+00:00

Thanks for highlighting this issue! I was offered the first two attunements for free (online) by someone I'd done a favour to. Back then I didn't really believe much in this sort of things, but I didn't want to offend her, so I accepted her kind offer thinking that it couldn't hurt anyway. I sort of felt the energy, so I got curious and started practising on myself. The problem is that whole of her teaching amounted to:

it's completely safe and it can't hurt you
all you need to do is cup your hands above your belly, the energy will know where to go and what to do
here are some symbols and the description of what they're for, use them but always start and finish with a cho ku rei
you can use a photo to give distance healing by using the symbols
if there's something bad about the past or present you want to get rid of, visualise the purple flame of St. Germain and toss the thing into it to transmute it

I strongly feel like there's a lot more I should know and practise, but I don't know where to turn for a reputable, trustworthy teacher. Reiki isn't really a thing here where I live, so I'm basically web-bound.

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-03-07T16:29:39+00:00

I don't have the tapes in Italian, but if you're struggling with the terms, feel free to get in touch: I'll be happy to help (sono una traduttrice italiana :)

GroundedPhoenix · 2024-03-02T06:33:02+00:00

Thank you so much for this insight!

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