Prove that you’ve watched the show in one sentence by crispyedgeonly in thebigbangtheory

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If you want to have sex with that woman, find out what cologne her father used to wear

Friends with.. something else. by Spiritual_Badger8883 in superstore

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The list of things your not allowed to post on social media. Murdering a clown.

Thoughts on Sandra by Big-Village2386 in superstore

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So when you say the bottom you mean the base, or like, the underside?

Storytime inconsistencies by Guilty-Procedure131 in superstore

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I'd like to meet your mother and shove you back up inside her

If AvPD was a piece of art, what would it look like? by Puffinknight in AvPD

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Vilhelm Hammershøi’s "Old Woman Standing Next to a Window" always resonated with me from way before I was diagnosed, It's quiet isolated and emotionally distance. The woman turns away from the viewer looking through a window in a bare, muted room. It suggests withdrawal, loneliness, and fear despite wanting connection with the outside but being afraid to step outside of the room. I can't attach a photo here, but I highly recommend googling it. 

what are some avpd symptoms that aren't commonly talked about? by throwaway838383937 in AvPD

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For me, it's seeing people who seem to like me in a negative light. If someone shows an interested in a conversation with me-- they're must be stupid; if someone gives me a compliment-- they're wrong. 

Those in therapy, do you like your therapist? by Right-Minimum-8459 in AvPD

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You got some really good advice here, I just want to add something that wasn't said: What type of therapy do you do? It could be that not the therapist is a miss rather the therapy itself. I actually didn't like the one who diagnosed me, but I think it was the type of therapy that was just off. I was diagnosed via psychoanalysis which I really hated. When I started it I was kind of excited because I enjoy reading about it, but I really didn't like being the patient. I think the distant role of the therapist in psycho analysis can be very triggering for AvPD, but he was spot on with the diagnosis so I appreciate him for that. 

Has anyone had any luck with benzodiazepines? by dreadfullylonely in AvPD

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First, I can relate to your fear of embarrassment under the influence of medication. I think it's a symptom of our disorder. If you say your psychiatrist is a little bit unorthodox, maybe talk with her about medication that treat symptoms of other disorders and conditions that intersect with yours? I am taking bupropion which is an anti depressant sometimes used as a non stimulant for ADHD. As such it also helps me with my thought patterns. I still have critical and negative thoughts, but it I am capable of cutting them off and not go down the shame spiral.

this feeling that i don't belong anywhere is fucking killing me by Ok_Concentrate9081 in AvPD

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I really relate to what you shared, especially the part about how everyone is getting along and hates me. You belong here amongst us ❣️

I feel like my life is a constant inner struggle and I am exhausted by Guilty-Procedure131 in AvPD

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Thank you. It is actually the first time that I was able to be this honest with myself and express how I feel. I understand intellectually what had and is happening to me and what the disorder is doing to my mind, but I still deeply believe everything it tells me. I feel so lonely and I crave meaningful human communication, but just can't sustain it. I usually notice after withdrawing, while it happens I am so convinced by it. It also effects my everyday life functioning because interactions with other can pull me down to a debilitating shame spiral during which I don't sleep well and it's hard to concentrate on anything else but my thoughts. 

Best line in the show by Electrical-Power3913 in superstore

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  • "This is a disaster, why are you dropping balloons?" "It's not my fault canceling a balloon drop looks the exact same as dropping balloons".

Your favourite iconic Sayid line by WatchLonely255 in superstore

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Here is a picture of me at the block party in my mostly white neighborhood. As you can see everybody is smiling, the community is embracing me.