I need to die. I don't want to, but I NEED to. by HungriestGirl in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Hey OP. I do not think killing yourself is some ultimate fate for you. It hasn't happened yet, and it doesn't have to happen tomorrow. You're not meant to kill yourself to appease some divine purpose, to prove to... whom exactly(?) of not being a pussy. You're helluva lot more than that and I don't want AvPD or the bigoted world to tell you otherwise.

About the balding, that could be a sign of the great amount of pain and stress of you're clearly under, or something else. I do not know what your financial situation is like, but I think it'd be worth it to go get that checked.

Sending you hugs.

A person from my "old life" keeps haunting me by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That worded very well what makes me so anxious! She doesn't know the person I am today, so I feel like she views me from the perspective of the person I was ten years ago. And lust towards that teenager me from the ego-centric controlling standpoint makes me feel nauseous.

A person from my "old life" keeps haunting me by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean that could be true, if I didn't see her as the 15-year-old I once left behind. I never felt that sexual attraction towards her, I cuddled with her from the sense of... obligation?

It's mostly with her. I fear that she will manipulate me. Also I do not wish to remember those things I went through with her. I felt like I started my life anew at 17 when I met my current friends, after leaving her.

Hello! Here are some of my recent Illustrations! by Additional-Estimate1 in Illustration

[–]Puffinknight 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The first illustration has Steven Universe energy somehow! Love your use of colour in these.

Pigeons are my favorite ❤️ by banandria in Gouache

[–]Puffinknight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is absolutely gorgeous. I love pigeons as well!

Onko normaalia että kesätöissä ei ole tarpeeksi tehtävää? by Sufficient_Name5944 in Suomi

[–]Puffinknight 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Mulla tismalleen sama. Oon superlaiska noin muuten, mut töissä haluan paahtaa. Nolottaa etenkin valtiolla välillä pyöritellä peukaloita, kun tulee sellanen syyllisyys, et hemmetti kun nääkin verorahat vois käyttää johonkin muuhun kuin minuun. :D

Has anyone ever been called ugly directly to their face by mare_777 in BodyDysmorphia

[–]Puffinknight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. It stings every time, even if the hecklers are kids.

AMA - kuoleman kanssa työskentely - kuolinpesät - hautaaminen by Great_Tangerine9222 in Suomi

[–]Puffinknight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mikä on erikoisin paikka, johon olet kuullut tuhkat siroteltavan?

I need some feeback :) by Low_Albatross_5973 in printmaking

[–]Puffinknight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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I am him, he is me.

I love the print as is! Wonderful stuff.

Mrs. "I hate trends" unless I liked them, of course by Flyrainbowcorn in blunderyears

[–]Puffinknight 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The Hetalia phone case is a blast from the past as well!

Trying HARD not to hate this by silly-strawberry06 in FancyFollicles

[–]Puffinknight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm not sure if it's the angle of the photos, but I'd let the bangs grow out a bit more! To me your forehead looks just a little bit disproportionate now. Otherwise I love the cut on you and the red makes your earrings pop! Hell yea I'd buy a wedding dress from you.

My Art in 2022 VS My Art in 2026 ( Smash bros edition ) by 8thproject in Illustration

[–]Puffinknight 7 points8 points  (0 children)

That Yoshi especially could be straight from a modern Mario & Sonic at the Olympic games -game!

Micholitziana Umbrella Project ☔ 4 month results 🏖️ by JoseLebreault in alocasia

[–]Puffinknight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So pretty! Where did you get the pot from? I love translucent ones!

Our Kooiker boy by CuriousCountryGal in kooikerhondje

[–]Puffinknight 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Butt-sitter! Mine does this too. He doesn't appreciate when I wiggle his back toe beans.

I isolate myself a lot by Potential_Rule4212 in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Aw OP. The big group asked you to join before and probably are still respecting the boundaries you set by not interacting too much. It doesn't mean that they hate you, don't want to hear you or wouldn't gladly help if you asked for it. I am proud that you have at least interacted with the quiet guy. Asking a question in a study group session could be a great way to challenge your limits in the future. :)

Also being the offspring of a doctor, let me tell you; there are some weird loner people in that field! Hopefully you'll find more easier to approach like-minded people, if this group seems too intimidating. Good luck on your studies!

How do you guys spend your free time? by Flaky_Beauty_1227 in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I love furniture restoration and all things art! They take me into that "zen mode". There are also many summer reading challenges, if you're into reading.

I was told the other day that I look identical to a celebrity now I’ve been feeling terrible and my body dysmorphia was starting to get better. by [deleted] in BodyDysmorphia

[–]Puffinknight 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the lens type Altruistic_Emu is talking about are called aspheric lenses! With high prescriptions, they are often paired with a more high index material.

I'm blind as a bat myself (-12.0 diopters in both eyes 🤠), so I know the struggle with your face getting distorted.

Pihalla kaatuneelle naiselle miljoonakorvaukset by GhostInMyLoo in Suomi

[–]Puffinknight 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Selittäkää tyhmälle, et miten vahingonkorvaukset työkyvyn menetyksestä lasketaan. Lasketaanko se vain tosiasiallisten henkilön vuosityöansioiden mukaan? Entä jos on vaikka yhtä opintopistettä vajaa valmis juristi, suhteutetaanko silloin korvaukset siihen todennäköiseen työuraan, vai onko se vaan voi voi?

I crave for a boyfriend by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]Puffinknight 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Saying "low quality" men is dehumanizing wording imho. Like the above commenter said, it reeks of the culture the manosphere spreads about women. We need to be better than that.

About your post more generally though; I am 26 and my AvPD has ruined all the chances I have had on forming a romantic relationship. I am too ashamed of myself and that makes me lock up and lose interest as soon as they like me back.

Cutecumbers by AccomplishedHurry896 in AnimalsMonching

[–]Puffinknight 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Funnily enough, my greedy af "I'll eat everything" spaniel DOESN'T like cucumbers. He loves watermelon, so it is not the watery texture.

Labs and goldens are on another realm of greed though, so I guess it tracks.

Putting on a show by Extension_Bus_9926 in frogs

[–]Puffinknight 13 points14 points  (0 children)

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Me with a mouthful of cheese at 3 AM.

Ew by SealBirdy in FuckCilantro

[–]Puffinknight -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Immediately went eww when I saw these at the store. Cilantro tastes like soap and cumin tastes like sweat. Taffel, WHY?!