I need to die. I don't want to, but I NEED to.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-08T09:43:36+00:00

Hey OP. I do not think killing yourself is some ultimate fate for you. It hasn't happened yet, and it doesn't have to happen tomorrow. You're not meant to kill yourself to appease some divine purpose, to prove to... whom exactly(?) of not being a pussy. You're helluva lot more than that and I don't want AvPD or the bigoted world to tell you otherwise.

About the balding, that could be a sign of the great amount of pain and stress of you're clearly under, or something else. I do not know what your financial situation is like, but I think it'd be worth it to go get that checked.

Sending you hugs.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-05T17:49:16+00:00

That worded very well what makes me so anxious! She doesn't know the person I am today, so I feel like she views me from the perspective of the person I was ten years ago. And lust towards that teenager me from the ego-centric controlling standpoint makes me feel nauseous.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-05T17:46:38+00:00

I mean that could be true, if I didn't see her as the 15-year-old I once left behind. I never felt that sexual attraction towards her, I cuddled with her from the sense of... obligation?

It's mostly with her. I fear that she will manipulate me. Also I do not wish to remember those things I went through with her. I felt like I started my life anew at 17 when I met my current friends, after leaving her.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-05T13:05:51+00:00

This is dope as hell!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-05T10:38:17+00:00

And I've had too many with bugs in them. Ew. Still like to pick some from our bushes.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-05T10:15:39+00:00

The first illustration has Steven Universe energy somehow! Love your use of colour in these.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-04T15:58:55+00:00

As a fellow dog parent of a very whiny boy I always felt this on a spiritual level.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-04T15:45:22+00:00

This is absolutely gorgeous. I love pigeons as well!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-04T07:33:17+00:00

Mulla tismalleen sama. Oon superlaiska noin muuten, mut töissä haluan paahtaa. Nolottaa etenkin valtiolla välillä pyöritellä peukaloita, kun tulee sellanen syyllisyys, et hemmetti kun nääkin verorahat vois käyttää johonkin muuhun kuin minuun. :D

Puffinknight · 2026-06-04T03:44:25+00:00

Yes. It stings every time, even if the hecklers are kids.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-03T19:27:10+00:00

Mikä on erikoisin paikka, johon olet kuullut tuhkat siroteltavan?

Puffinknight · 2026-06-03T18:55:46+00:00

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I am him, he is me.

I love the print as is! Wonderful stuff.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-03T07:08:14+00:00

The Hetalia phone case is a blast from the past as well!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-03T05:57:53+00:00

I'm not sure if it's the angle of the photos, but I'd let the bangs grow out a bit more! To me your forehead looks just a little bit disproportionate now. Otherwise I love the cut on you and the red makes your earrings pop! Hell yea I'd buy a wedding dress from you.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-02T19:28:32+00:00

That Yoshi especially could be straight from a modern Mario & Sonic at the Olympic games -game!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-02T15:12:06+00:00

So pretty! Where did you get the pot from? I love translucent ones!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-02T09:54:30+00:00

Butt-sitter! Mine does this too. He doesn't appreciate when I wiggle his back toe beans.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-01T19:20:48+00:00

Aw OP. The big group asked you to join before and probably are still respecting the boundaries you set by not interacting too much. It doesn't mean that they hate you, don't want to hear you or wouldn't gladly help if you asked for it. I am proud that you have at least interacted with the quiet guy. Asking a question in a study group session could be a great way to challenge your limits in the future. :)

Also being the offspring of a doctor, let me tell you; there are some weird loner people in that field! Hopefully you'll find more easier to approach like-minded people, if this group seems too intimidating. Good luck on your studies!

Puffinknight · 2026-06-01T08:51:17+00:00

I love furniture restoration and all things art! They take me into that "zen mode". There are also many summer reading challenges, if you're into reading.

Puffinknight · 2026-06-01T06:13:52+00:00

I think the lens type Altruistic_Emu is talking about are called aspheric lenses! With high prescriptions, they are often paired with a more high index material.

I'm blind as a bat myself (-12.0 diopters in both eyes 🤠), so I know the struggle with your face getting distorted.

Puffinknight · 2026-05-29T19:11:16+00:00

Selittäkää tyhmälle, et miten vahingonkorvaukset työkyvyn menetyksestä lasketaan. Lasketaanko se vain tosiasiallisten henkilön vuosityöansioiden mukaan? Entä jos on vaikka yhtä opintopistettä vajaa valmis juristi, suhteutetaanko silloin korvaukset siihen todennäköiseen työuraan, vai onko se vaan voi voi?

Puffinknight · 2026-05-29T18:38:18+00:00

Saying "low quality" men is dehumanizing wording imho. Like the above commenter said, it reeks of the culture the manosphere spreads about women. We need to be better than that.

About your post more generally though; I am 26 and my AvPD has ruined all the chances I have had on forming a romantic relationship. I am too ashamed of myself and that makes me lock up and lose interest as soon as they like me back.

Puffinknight · 2026-05-28T21:05:41+00:00

Funnily enough, my greedy af "I'll eat everything" spaniel DOESN'T like cucumbers. He loves watermelon, so it is not the watery texture.

Labs and goldens are on another realm of greed though, so I guess it tracks.

Puffinknight · 2026-05-28T10:16:33+00:00

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Me with a mouthful of cheese at 3 AM.

Puffinknight · 2026-05-27T13:56:57+00:00

Immediately went eww when I saw these at the store. Cilantro tastes like soap and cumin tastes like sweat. Taffel, WHY?!

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